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Friday, September 15, 2006
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
Bah. Made the final decision. Leaving this blog, 546 entries, alone. Nudge me in msn for new blog addy. But will still be meddlin with this blog layout abit. If you guys do miss me, look thru my past post and start admiring my pictures. HAHAHHAHA ^^
China Doll
Enough of rationalism. It's time for some "selfish" rantings.
I don't understand why I am always the one givin in. They say give and take, give and take. Yes, I give. But I don't see myself taking. Know why? Cos no one is givin me. Okay. So I try to be nice, swallowin unhappiness and give what I can, because they say to give is happiness. So, I am trying to be angelic. I give. No, never I thought to be revengeful and stop givin and start takin. But people always take advantage. They take and take and never give. However, when I stop givin or start givin alittle less, I'm deem as selfish. Im am being scolded, nagged, accused and whatever u can think of. When I try to save alittle for myself, they will say I only think for myself.
"Give reuben $10 to let him watch movie tomorrow. Tomorrow his birthday."
Ok la. Being his sister I'll be nice and give him ten bucks since it is his birthday. But wait, haven I given him enough? Each time, "jie! I want to eat blahblahblah. Jie! I wan to drink blahblahblah. Jie I wan to buy blahblahblah." But actually he's been savin up himself. He have more money then me ok? Then, my mum will say "Reuben very poor thing, everytime no money go out. Saving on his pocket money." WHAT?!?! When Im still 14, I still don't what the fuck is shopping. I want to save but my pocket money so little how to save. During my 14th birthday, where's my ten dollars? Fairness? Okay. You may say, the world is changing. Yes it is. He should get everything will I get nothing of what I deserved.
"I have pasted the receipt for your contact lens solution on your mirror. Return me money tml"
When I got home and see, 2 boxes of conditioning, and 1 box of cleansin solution. Total amount = $29. I ONLY ASKED YOU TO HELP ME BUY THE CLEANSIN SOLUTION WHICH COST NINE FUCKIN BUCKS! AND I WILL DEFINITELY PAY YOU BACK BUT SINCE U REQUESTED IN AN AUTHORITATIVE TONE I DON"T FEEL LIKE PAYIN YOU BACK AND NOW U BUY SO MANY EXTRA BOXES FOR DON"T KNOW WHAT FUCKING REASON NNBCCB! Fairness?
"Tml not working? Stay at home and don't go out spend money."
Like wtf? Goin out is not equals to spendin money. Friend spend money is inequivalent to me spendin money. I wanted to stay at home. Now that you said it, I feel like going out already.
"Try to work morning shift on the 12th, 13th and 14th. Go home early to look after your brother."
HUH?!?! HELLO?!?! He is 14 goin on 15. Since he knows how to invite his friends over and make a din early morning, why cant he take care of himself? he doesn't need me to take care of him. He will be more then happy to not see me. And then, have all the fun, and tell my mum "jiejie not at home go out clubbing/with bf (whatever shit he can say to accuse me)!!! No one to do housework, mop the floor, vacuum the floor, wash the plates! Thats why whole house so messy!" Ya la. You make the whole house so messy and leave it to me to pack. Scream at you to pack yourself, you did not want to do it. When mum comes home, Im the one being scolded.
Where the fuck is Fairness? Fairness is nothing but bullshit.
Don't ask me to chill, treat it as nth happened, one ear in one ear out. They are all rubbish. I am human I have my own feelings and Im not that brainless. I know all these, but easy to say, difficult to execute. So just STFU..
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Am fucking broke. Still have to buy contact lens solution go for dental. I think I will ask my mama cancel my dental appointment. Liek what the hell, she's the one who wants me to go for dental and she doesnt want to pay for me.
Am feeling fuckin piss about everything else.. Just fuck off. zZz