China Doll
Thursday, March 30, 2006
WHY CHINABLACK HAS TO CLOSE DOWN BEFORE I EVEN GO!?!? Okae.. so stock take was a breeze for parttimers. Happy belated birthday to Elli! Celebrated in the shop. Pics up tml ^^. Left Parkway made our way to Pacific Plaze BUT! Chinablack really closed down. =( The club I wanted to go so much. SO nevermind... Me and Xiaoling decided to go for Club MoMo!
BUT! The queue was fucking long. Met up with Bird and Bao. Decided on Gotham Penthhouse. A pity that I did not make it to a big club. HAHA.
So had my IC checked went into Gotham. A nice place with fishtank and all. Sat down chill and have a drink. I had Vodka lime x 2, vodka ribena, bloody mary(shared), whiskey with water (shared cos it isnt nice.) alittle of burban coke and alittle of graveyard.
It's quite a nice club. Cos it plays r&b and reggae. Nice... me like. Danced like ah siao. Some digusting ang mohs come and buaya me and xiaoling which almost made me puked. Luckily they retreated knowin that we arent interested AND IT IS REALLLLLLY DISGUSTING cos they have beer belly. YUCK!
They do play nice songs that made me high like shit. Songs like We belong together, Shake (and i literally shake through the wholllllleee song HEHE), gold digger and many many nice songs.
On the way home me and bao talked rubbish. HAHa. But we know what we are talkin abt la. Just feeling high!
A pity that my girl aint with me!!! =( we will have chance yea???!
Shall update more tml since I am stayin at home. Lets see tml whether I can even remember posting this entry. HAHA
China Doll
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I was actually quite upset with my mother's word when I was havin my really late dinner.
"You du shu de ren jiao de peng you jiu shi bi jiao guai."
Literally: Those people who studies make friends who are more guai.
As you know, old people, what they meant by people who studies are those people who chiong their homework, study hard for test and get good grades.
As usual, she's referring to my elder brother, praising how guai and ting hua he is. I felt that the above sentence was shot directly at me.
I was never jealous of my brother( maybe at a point of time, yes, but I've already outgrown that stage). He's a guy, I'm a girl. His character and mine is completely different. There's absolutely nothing to compare, I feel. But the problem is, my mum's always comparing.
My mum always think that the people I hang out with is bu san bu si, zhu peng gou you. I get very offended when my mum says that. I think she is insulting my friends. Because I know my friends are all nice people who helped me through my life. They deserved to be compliment rather than insulted.
Somehow, the way I interpreted that sentence was:
"You are in polytechnic, you did not get good grades, your friends are all rubbish. They all lead you astray. Whereas people in JC are ALLLLLLLLLLLLL studious *insert all the nice words* blah blah."
I know this isn't a very objective to view the whole thing. But sometimes you are just so bu shuang about everything that u go on endlessly on how unfair people is treating you. Thats the way I am feeling.
China Doll
Cam-whoring with fellow colleagues again! Because Belle's didi got some Batman wings and Dracula coat, he left it in the care of his sister in the shop. So after work we decided to... PLAY WITH IT! DAMN COOL AND HILARIOUS!
Click to see a larger picture.
It's really funny. Take a close look at it. Haha. Belle didi is very cute."Ehhh!! I also want to play with you all!"
*Barge into the room*
Tomorrow stocktake. Elli's birthday. Stocktake. Celebrations. Most probably heading down to Chinablack with Xiaoling. Felicia's lendin her ic to me! Say yea!!!! haha.
China Doll
Monday, March 27, 2006
At this time, I've got my pay already. SAY YEAAAAA. Am dying to get my T610 to RIP. Time to have it buried in a safe place. haha. VS7! Here I came. Most prolly next month. HEHE.
Tomorrow, I shall go get my toner (still decidin whether to use Missha's or otehr brand. zZz any recommendation?) , foundation and 1 pair of girl boxer from Topshop, buy Wani's birthday present, clear some of my reservation, get nail polish remover.. FUCK! Lotsa money gonna be spennntttt.. =( SEXAY! I have made up my mind to rip my tights. HEHE. I still have to pay my hp bills, return my mum $50 and Belle $30. Sobz.
Just get pay broke already. Hai.
Oh yes. I have decided to make fondu for Elli and colleagues on stockdate day since Im startin work at 4pm! i can wake up early and start makin! Stocktake day is also Elli's birthday!! Happy happy happy. Bought my choco and marshmellow. Best part is, my mum paid for it. HEHE Smart me. I should have bought the Hershey's Choco instead of some jepalang cheapskate choco brand man. HEHE. Not so smart of me. =( LOL.
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China Doll
Sunday, March 26, 2006
Day was great with my girl. Althou both of us not in our best shoppin mood but heck. Walked around town and head down to Bugis to have Ma La Huo Guo. In Engrish isit called Spicy Steamboat? Think so ah. haha Damn damn damn shiok. Shall have it again with my family maybe this coming Saturday.
Seems like Im no longer interested shoppin in town and bugis. Except when Im broke I might go down to Bugis Village for some cheap shopping thrill. Im more interested in Topshop, X:odus, Club Marc so on.
OHHH And we saw this fucking nice ripcurl.. or isit roxy? I think it is roxy cap. Damn nice. The front part is of snake skin. But I think it is fake. haha. Ity is freakin nice. If I have extra cash I might get it. Oh... and this Stussy jacket that cost $145. !#$&*(
Bought a tee. SINFUL AH
Sometimes I really think that me and my girl can be considered the bestest of best friend in the whole wide world. Thou we have some minor conflicts, but we always faced it bravely. We don't bear any grudges at all.. HEHE.
Tomorrow might head to to the library to pay my fines and borrow some books. Am getting damn bored at home.
China Doll
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Been planning how am I gonna spend my pay when I receive it on the 27th, 11pm.
There are so many things I need to buy and I WANT to buy.
But come to think of it, I am not able to do that. Lets seeeeee:
Expected pay $600+. So take it as $600
minus of my mum's and my hp bill $100
minus of I owe Chamebelle $30.
minus bus concession $52
minus of library fine $15
minus savings and i DESPERATELY NEED TO SAVE $100 (of cos I will try to save as much cos I wan to change my phone to vs 7. yeayea. I changed my mind already.)
hai. Saded.
Shall practise self-restrain. And I mean it.
China Doll
Friday, March 24, 2006
There's one thing I always dun understand about myself.
Friday night is always the emo night.
Why huh? Can someone enlighten me?
Maybe, people are out havin fun partying the night away and I am all alone in this house desperately tryin to find something to do.
Maybe it's a Friday night there is not good show being shown on the tv.
Maybe weekend is approaching and I have no programs on.
Maybe it's a Friday and you booked out and I missed you so.
Tsk!
Anyway, work today = borinnnnnnggggggg. But crappin with Irene is forever fun. All the rubbish talk again thou sales was VERY x 98765432 bad. But who cares? Both of us are just parttimer. HEHE.
Oh YES! JOSLIN CAME TODAY! SHE'S DA DANCIN QUUUEEENNNNN!!!!!! haha.
At this very moment, I have got nothing going on in my head so I shall sign off. Bye.
China Doll
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
All my life
I pray for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way, too
Yes, I pray that you do love me
You're all that I've ever known,
When you smile
My face always seems to glow,
You turn my life around,
You're all that I've ever known,
When you smile my face glows glows,
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you feel the same way, too,
Yes, I pray that you do love me, too!
K-Ci & Jojo: All my life.
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Lovely song.
China Doll
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Changed another blogskin. Even more simple but neat. The broken glasses picture I put it up myself. Look kinda off. But heck. Cant be bothered with my layout anymore. As long my text are readable, Im ok.
I used te be very conscious of how my blog looked. Whether it is the nicest, with tons of nagivations, fanciful cursors, colourful scrollbars and etc. Whether or not the text is readable. I can almost say, it's like an unofficial blogskin competition between people I know.
I started out blogging using the most horrendous language on Earth - the lehs, the lars, the mehs and so on. (I still do use them but at least better than before. heh) My atrocious English brought me nowhere. After blogging for like a year, I realise the true meaning about blogging.
Blogging is more of penning down your thoughts, beliefs, reflections or to even serve as a memory box. Occasionally updates on your own life. There is no need of a glamorous blogskin. It is a waste of time and energy me think. haha.
Bottomline: I love plain simple clean-cut blogskin. Best is black text against white background because Mr. Ethan Guo says it is the most comprehensible colour combination.
Damn. Im startin to miss school.
I wanna be part of your life, part of your story, part of your show and part of your talk.
China Doll
Sunday, March 19, 2006
http://www1.tianya.cn/new/techforum/Content.asp?idWriter=0&Key=0&idItem=16&idArticle=579618
This is the picture.
http://www.flurl.com/uploaded/Djurplgare_85850.html
This is the video.
Yes. I can hear all the yucks and eeeeee
Fuck that fuckin bitch. Such inhuman act should be condemn. Fuck that sickenin bitch.
Benny and I cant stop hurling vulgarities.
Quoted from Benny:
"male dogs gonna bang her hard man like a fucing bitch run her over by cars splitting her inhalf and then grind her into juice and fucking burn her so she cant reincarnate."
I agree.
What the hell is wrong with that mad woman?
China Doll
For the past few days I've been wondering about my existence. Why is it so? Because my mother once told me: "I had a hard time giving birth to you." When she's in labour, my grandparents and relatives treated her like this and like that.
I wasn't upset nor disappointed with her words. It just set off my chain of thoughts.
If my mother did not conceive me, I would not be on this Earth typing away this shit. My mother will then not have a hard time in the hospital tryin to push me out of her womb.
If I do not exist at all, my mother will have only 2 sons. This also means that without my existence, financial burden in the family will not be so heavy. My mother will also not have so much things to worry about because I am a girl. It is worryin for a mother to have a daughter isnt it?
But, without my existence, there will be no one in the family to help my mother to do housework. *Laugh*
Hmmm... If I do not exist, it does not means that there will no one who will exist in my place. Who will exist in my place leh? I wonder.. Will it be another girl or boy? Another child who behaves better than me, spend less than me, cause less worry than me? Or will it be another way round?
If I do not exist in this big big world, who will be the best friend of my best friend? Someone prettier? Someone more understanding? Someone more fun-loving? Someone more cheerful? Someone smarter?
Then, has my existence brought about happiness and benefits to my surrounding people? IF one day I just disappear, how will it affect family and friends? Very badly? Or will they just forget about me in a short while.
Damn. So confusing. Bluagh! Cant be bothered anymore.
Anyway, SiongChie chalet was all about booze (Absolute Vodka with Ribena!!! SLURPZ), fag and crap. Rhyme huh? Thats life man.
China Doll
Friday, March 17, 2006
Today skating with Angel and Huixin is so fun!!!!
We skate around, taught Huixin to skate. Felt the wind rushin into my face. Had the sun burnin into my skin. Damn shiok. Sweat alot. I can feel my butts alittle more perky. HAHA Kylie Minouge wannabe. LMAO
Proceeded to the 4e2 chalet. Felt like an outcast. My main motive is actually to see Xingyi!!! the girl in the 2nd pic of top row. miss her damn much!Ok. As promised, cam-whorin with my colleagues. below. Btw, I think the fierce pic I took with Xiaoling in the middle is damn nice. haha.
China Doll
Thursday, March 16, 2006
I think I am seriously suffering from insomnia. Last night I sleep at freaking 5 am.
I went to bed at 2am. Toss and turn, toss and turn. 3am. Cant sleep at all. Watched tv but dun understand at all. Finished reading Chapattis or Chips borrowed from XiaoLing. 4am. Damn frustrated that I can't sleep at all. Messaged Ashley. He called. Start of our conversation.
Talkin to Ashley is so freaking hilarious.
Here's part of our conversation..
Ash: ehhh i got myself an italian name leh.
Me: what?
Ash: Carlos Santana. Zai bo?
Me: omfg. shuddap k.
*Me and Ashley laughed like mad*
Another one..
Me: ehh.. what tattoo u put one ur leg?
Ash: your face...
Me: idiot la.. faster say..
Ash: den hor got a speech bubble coming out.. saying I LOVE YOU.
Me: NB you.
So the conversation continued for on hour till 5am. Finally, I went to sleep and woke up at a freakin 9am. Funny thing is, I am not tired at all. I tried to sleep in bus; I can't. I tried to sleep during my break time; I ended up at 77th Street tryin clothes.
Whats the problem with meeeeE????
Cam-whoring after work today. Just finish editing all the pictures. Shall post it up tml.. weeeeeee bladin tml with my girl! Haven seen her for ages. damnnn...
China Doll
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Today's sucha goddamn boring day. No work for me. Stayed at home. Woke up at 3 pm. FShiok! Rolled around. Talked to my mum. Screamed at my bro. Enjoyed ice-cream with bread on my bed. Had fun prancing on my bed. Best of all with techno blasting.
When was the last time I listened to techno? Long long time ago. Until a few days, I digged out a Groove Coverage CD. I have to say, they are the best techno-ish band. Next up would be FloorFilla. hahaha. But stilllll still still still... R&B and REGGAE rocks all da way!
Anyway, I was so bored today that I used a toothpick to open my conch piercing again. So now, a transparent stick sits neatly in that hole. I missed my conch piercin sooooo muchhhH! Glad that it is back.
Here I am bloggin away because there is no nice shows going on in that big black box in my room. Chatting away with friends. So boring.
I realise I have been envious of friends around me. Like ShiQi, who has got time to go for Korean classes, dance classes. Me? Time is devoted to school and work. More school and work. Any extra time will be family and friends. It can get realllyy boring at times.
At the same time, I love my life because my friendship and family-ship is going great! Lets not mention relationship. =/
Argh. Life is so contradicting. Like what Benny says, I don't practise what I preach. riiiighhhhhtttt beennnnnnnyyyy? Zouk-ing once I reached 18 riiiigggghHhhttt? LOL
China Doll
Monday, March 13, 2006
Although today work was very sian, but I am still in good mood. Because I have new uniform to wear! And it is like so freakin ex can?!?! But still nice. HEEHEE! That white babydoll and the laced 3/4 pants. Damn goth. Moreover I wore it with black heels and black black eyeliner. Damn goth. ME LOVEEE!!!!!!!!!!
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Anyway I saw Nissan Fairlady 350Z today on the road twice. In my fave car colour somemore. Silver. So chio. One hella fierce lookin car. Me like.
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My cousin is out. Saw him when I was workin. Good to see him and his son! YaoXiang became so skinny. But still so cute! My cousin became more mature. And his spec is so kwawii. Hopefully he lives his life well. ^^
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I miss the way you held my hands.
I miss the way I held you thumb.
I miss the awkward silence when we chat over phone.
I miss those little sweet nothings you said to me.
I miss the way you looked at me with your pretty eyes.
I miss the way you cuddled me when you know Im cold.
I just miss you. So much.
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TSK! This post is so random. -.-
China Doll
Friday, March 10, 2006
OMGOMG! WHY DID I RECEIVED MY RESULT SO GODDAMN LATE!!
Here is it:
Journalism: Feature Writing = B
Media Management Principles = Z
Persuasive Communication = C
Photography = B+
Intro. to Psychology = B+
GPA = 2.94
WHAHHA.. I tell you.. I am now smiling to myself like an idiot. Althou my GPA is not a 3. But at least I improvedd! Surprisingly I scored a distinction for my MMPrin. Shock shock shock. Also, miracle that I did not flunk my PerCom!!! MUAHAH
Since Lao Niang in good mood, I shall post a pic of mee!!! And it is super cute k!
my bro and me. so cute rigghhhhttt..
Pool later with my girl.
Hey girl: dun be upset.. we will work hard together to achieve what we wan yea? cheer up!!
China Doll
Thursday, March 09, 2006
I am amazed with what I did today. I actually burst out crying 3 times today. First it was on bus no. 15 from Tampines all the way to Parkway. Second was on bus no. 36 on the way to town. Third was waiting for Laura to finish her interview at that Rolex building.
I feel much more better thou.
Never in my life I've done that. But, I just cant help it. Life fucked me upside down for the past few days. Partly was due to PMS. Not an excuse but it's really PMS. Nb.
Supposed to meet up with Emelia, Felicia and gang but things went the other way. Laura and I ended up sitting at Starbucks talking away.
It feels really good. To discuss about so much things despite having so many of our questions unanswered. Thats life I guess. Many many many many many unanswered doubts and questions.
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My day started very badly. I almost wanted to not meet my polymates. But I just went ahead. My mind is in a lost, confused, frustrated, irritated etc state. I tell you I almost step onto the roads and wish some cars can just bang me straight.
Somehow, I felt abit better. Tried to sort out my thinking. I gave in and apologised. Then I told Laura, it's tiring to be always the one giving in although Im not entirely at fault. Then at home, I concluded that if I were the one saying sorry and it can salvage bad situations, I am most willingly to do so.
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At this point of time I feel like crying again. I am feelin like a clueless bird looking for directions.
Laura asked me what I really want for now. I answered her "I don't know". And I seriously don't know!!! Nothing keeps me motivated anymore. I have no aim in my life. This is bad.
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And I certainly certainly certainly hate hate hate being accused.
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am not gonna succumb to temptations anymore.
China Doll
Monday, March 06, 2006
Never in my life I had ever feel so maligned feel so wronged.
The fact is that I did go to work. For what I would want to skip work, wake up early morning just to get out of the house? The person who does that has a brain size of a pea. Moreover, I am working for myself. I need the money. Why wouldn't I want to earn more? FOR WHAT I WOULD TAKE THE TROUBLE TO GO TO POLYCLINIC TO TAKE MC?!?!?!If I wanna go out I can simply just request an off one week before. WHY ALL THAT TROUBLE JUST TO SKIP WORK. KNN
I am fucking angry right now. So what I did go to town after work to meet my girl to slack? Whats the fuckin problem with that. You call this immature call this insensible? Like what the fuck?!?!
I DID GO TO WORK.
China Doll
Sunday, March 05, 2006
After reading Pohleng's blog, I this sudden urge to club. They went Music Underground. Erm. Not the place I wanna be in thou. They sure had fun getting themselves drunk. LMAO. Beth did asked me of cos I rejected cos I know I wun be able to go.
Come to think of it, when was the last time I really had fun with my girlfriends? From what I can remember it was New year eve and it's like more than 2 months ago? After the New year holiday it was sch work, work, sch work, work and so on. Thought life would be much more easier after holiday started. But a big nono. I worked and worked and worked like a full timer to cover my own expenses. Sigh.
Sch + work = tired
Work = tired.
Everything = tired
After I get my next pay, I will gooooo clubbbinnnnnggg with my girlfriendssss!!! Let my hairs down and dance the night away... Something to keep me motivated and look forward to. Whether that day is gonna come, I also don't know.
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My mum is still not talkin to me. duh...
I don't get it. Whats the big deal of havin my conch pierce. Not as if I pierced it myself and I will be blind. I paid $48 to have that damn stud to be on my conch. Old people nowdays. Tsktsk *shake head* I know she cares about me but I don't think she should be ignoring me.
Managed to foster good relationship between the 2 of us and now its gone again. Kinda upset. I believe the trust she had me in is gone too. Sigh.
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Anyway, work today was fun yet boring. No incharge today! Say yeaaa!! So Amber, Huijun and me caused havoc in store today la. Shan't elaborate in case kanna exposed. NO GOOD!
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Oh yes! Laura, Felicia and Emelia! Im gonna see you guys this week. If Im not wrong should be Wednesday!! OOO IM SO EXCITED!!!
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I have decided to get Panasonic VS6. Comments anyone?
China Doll
Friday, March 03, 2006
I can sense that I am fallin ill.
I can feel the heat in my body.
My organs are gonna explode.
BOOM!!!
China Doll
uh-oh. Mum found out about my pierced conch. Expectedly, she scolded me.
Sigh.
Well, at least I don't have to hide anymore.
=D
China Doll
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Yesterday I did blog. I wrote a fucking long entry. And then the very nice blogger.com. cock up. #$%^&* NBBB! CAnt be bothered to re write again.
Anyway here's some of snow city pic. =)
If you are sick. go see a doc. I know u are disgusted by medicine but u are always falling sick. Have a good rest please. I dun have the courage to tell u all this. But I hope you hear what I am thinkin.
Imu.