China Doll
Friday, September 30, 2005
Im still darn upset that i actually have to pay the full amount of my contact lens by myself.
China Doll
I forwarded KC a msg. Never did i expect him to reply in the evening. I was truly glad that he replied and asked how am i. we continued our conversation thru sms. Managed to get some updates on him. Glad that he is fine. But he broke his ankle. my gdness.
Later in the night, my ex messaged me in msn too. fwah! What a day. Had a nice conversation too. While, shi jie bian le. Never know my ex know how to think so maturely leh.. Veyr much surprised. Hope he will really study hard for his O level.
Im really very happy to get in touch back with both of them. Because both were people whom I've loved before. Happy to see them alive and kicking. Happy to see them doing what they liked.
Whatever that may happened in the future, i sincerely pray for the best for both of them.
Was talking to Yujie on da phone. Nice chap. Very crappy. Din really talk like this to a person other than angelina. heh. cute fella. study hard for ya exams too yea? =)
China Doll
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
2nd post of the day.
So happy that i will be working tml. no more staying at home.
By this time, i should get my pay already.
From now on, i shall master the art of starving.
Why?
Cos my contact lens cost $260 and my pay is less than $500.
My mum is unwilling to pay HALF of it for me.
She feels that i shall take on the full cost.
Still hafta pay hp bill.
And my mum feels that i SHOULD pay for her hp bill.
Fine.
By that time don't she fucking come scold me for not eating.
I cannot stand my hair anymore. Friday, im gonna get my fringe back! i cannot live without my fringe. damn and my contact lens.
going to alter my skirt. with just a pair of scissors! heh.
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Why is it that im always in da wrong. Why must i always be the one understandin people and not the other way round? why i mux always be the one giving in but not ppl giving in to me? why is it that i cant do what i wanted to do? unfair. sometimes i really wish to not retort. cos im really too drained. even numbed to feel anything. no matter what i say, situation will not improve. when will i get out of this mess?
China Doll
emo emo me.
screwed life..
I WANNNA RUN AWAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
China Doll
Floods.
Heatwaves.
Hurricanes.
Bird Flu.
Dengue.
Murder.
The world is going crazy.
So am I.
Bao feng yu qian de ning jing.
I knew history will repeat.
I dare not face it.
Now it happened.
Again.
I don't wish to care.
I see my younger brother.
My heart broke.
He's only 13.
I don't understand what 'mature' adults are thinking nowadays.
Does things have to turn out this way?
Does things have to involve police?
Money is the root of all evil.
I believe.
Yet money makes the world goes round.
Escapism. Is what i though of.
Not sure whether it is right to do so.
But to tell you what's on my mind.
Escapism.
The empty feeling I had every night.
The insomnia i suffered every night.
My mind is a whirlwind.
I can't think. I can't breath.
If only, someone is here to take me away.
Almost giving up almost everything in my life.
I knew i can't.
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Msg to angeline jie:
jie.. I really think that shldnt be the way u handle things ba.. im not trying to be a busybody. I might sound naggish and i know more or less u will feel irritated. but i really hope u can live happily. Always think things from different angles. I believe you loved everyone around you and everyone around u love you too right? *muackz* Jie mei qing shen.
China Doll
Sunday, September 25, 2005
I was on heels for the WHOLE day. Yes. Heels. WHOLE day. Never in my life, I have folded so much clothes. Never in my life, I have typed so much numbers with computer keyboard. Was fuckin boring for the atrium sales. I swore I'll never go to any atrium sales anymore.
Met up with Eric after work. Because he was at Costa Sand for a chalet and i happen to be working at White Sand. Talk rubbish till 11.15pm before i headed home. Boo la. Why his bike is single sitter. Cannot tongpang me back. HAHAHA.
Yes. As i mentioned before, i wore specs for the whole day. So... unlike mee! i din dare to take any pic. Cos.. i scared la! Ugly. =( Some say i look older some say i look mature some say i look sweeter some say i wanna act si wen. WTH!! LOL! ma fan.
While i was walking home, i saw ali! (... not me la... angel calls me ali. but im not referring to myself. it's teh guy who work next to Ebase BJ at Domanchi.) He is a malay and damn cute. Abit err.. niang niang qiang. i forgot the english term for that. effeminate? or smth? AHHH! cant remember. He say he cant recognise me. he also said that "look so decent but so familiar"
what the hell! im all the while decent one what!! LOL
Aight. Some pics that are taken during the slacking days in town. Dress that i really like at Shibuya $59.90. Really nice. It's difficult to find a dress that really fits me nicely and LOOK NICE on me nowadays. sigh. so, i secretly took pic in the fitting room. HEHE
blurry pic first! shaky hands. heh
yea! nice not? nice right? just a plain black dress. $59.90 actually consider affordable but where will i wear to? haha. not very practical.
China Doll
Friday, September 23, 2005
Woke up in the morning. Was feeling damn excited. Cos Im going to sentosa to tan!! Triple Hooray! Scrambled around. Get ready.
mE! Playing around with my bumble bee sunglass before I left my house.
Left my house at around 10.35am. Walked past TM's S&K went inside and talk with Chloe. Then, as expected, my forever so beloved ANGELINE TAN, called me and said she just woke up. Great. So I went so CSQ Ebase. Found Irene to be there alone. So accompany her awhile. Heh. So i made my way to the mrt station at 11.30am. Reached Eunos at 11.40am. Angel reach at about 11.45am. #$%^7 =X okie. She's forgiven.
Went to tan. Initially we made our way to Palawan beach, wanted to tan at an offshore island. However, it was high tide, no space to lie. So we made our way back to mainland. As the weather was freakin hot, we soaked in the seawater. Then, a guy clad in JEANS! JEANS JEANS JEANS! TELL ME! WHERE GOT PEOPLE WEAR JEANS AND SWIM AT BEACHES! Oh my oh my. terrible.
Guy: Xiao jie, ke yi zuo ge peng you ma?
Me: BU KE YI!
Guy: Wei she me?
Me: YIN WEI WO SHUO BU KE YI!
Guy: Zuo ge peng you er yi ma.. ok lor.. bye bye
Me: BYE!!!
Those guys scare us off. So we swam to the 2 platforms. Me, being a lousy swimmer. Almost died. I can swim k! Angel keeps doubting me. I CAN SWIMMMM!! Just that I cant swim well hor!
Bad news. My contact lens dropped into the sea when I was swimming. So i was practically half blind when Im tanning on the platform. Then, there were this group of malays. Wanted to make friends too.
The ghim moh malay is damn cute can. Me and Angel was sitting up and soaking our feets and reminiscing the past (again) then this ghim moh malay swam in front of us. In different styles somemore. Dog style, free style, and erm.. even sealion style! Keep smilin and making faces. Me and Angel was laughing away. At least he is not as irritatin as the previous guy.
His friends: Eh! He wants to make friend with u!
Angel: huh? who?
His friend: The golden hair one.
Angel: I got boyfriend already. My bf is her. (points at me)
His friend: (Shouts across to the offshore island) GOT BF ALREADY!
His friend: My friend say u v pretty.
Angel: Thank you ah.
His friend: (SHOUTS ACROSS TO THE OFFSHORE ISLAND) OEI! GAM XIA! (Me and Angel LAUGHED)
His friend: Then her leh (points at me).
Me: got boyfriend also.
And then, the ghim moh malay guy continues to swim in front of us. HAHAH DAMN CUTE CAN?!?!
Got quite a few minor scratches. ewww..
This was taken afetr we washed up and make up. act cute. yes. i know.
In da bus on the way back to mainland.! hehe. ZI LIAN!
I LIKE THIS PIC!! SO OLD SCHOOOOLLLLL!
We actually discovered that we tan our back more than we tan our front. so it's like, our back is darker than the front? Cos we had our back facing the sun when sitting at the platform. what the hellll! LOL!
After sentosa we made our way to Bugis. Walked and slack around. Saw many many xiao lian. FASHION DISASTER!!!!
Tomorrow I am suppose to make my to White Sand for atrium sales. No contact lens for me. I have to wear spec! OH MY GOD! I DIN WEAR MY SPEC OUT FOR A LONG LONG LONG LONG AND I MEAN LONG TIME!!!! sigh. dun bother to come and find me until wed. Cos it will only be until wednesday then i'll get my tailor made contact lens.
A fucking expensive of $260! My mum expect me to pay all by myself? How to survive? My pay is gonna be only a tiny weeny of $460. Including my hp bills, transport and food. Furthermore I am suppose to dye and highlight my hair. I think I can forget about it already. Sigh. How to save for my Bangkok trip also? HAI!
China Doll
Thursday, September 22, 2005
Mom called up my shop. I knew she did it purposely to check on me. Blah. Whatever. Then, she asked me whether I wanna go Bangkok. I said anything. But my heart was thinking:
"My pay for this month would only be $460. how to survive u tell me. Let alone go bangkok shoppin."
Im suppose to pay for my own expenses while my mom will pay for the accomodation and plane tickets. i wanted to go. but it's like me, my mom and her mum. 3 person sibei pantang one leh! Ask her to invite my cousin she don't want. =( Not every sure about it. Will decide about it later.
Saturday I'll be at the atrium sales at White Sand outside Jean Yip Hair Salon. Pay me a visit! haha.. Cos i know i wil be bored to deathhhhhh.....
As for Sunday, i'll be workin 2/7. Anyone wanna treat me dinner? Meaning u get to date me wooorrr! hahaa.. just joking..
Ye xu, zuo ni de qi zhong yi ge, hui bi zuo ni zui hou yi ge lai de yao xin fu.
Wo bu zhi dao wei she me wo ne me rong yi rang ni cong wo shou zhong liu zuo.
Huo xu, dang wo shou fang kai hou, ni hui gen kuai le.
Wo hou hui.
Yin wei wo men mei you wei wo men de ai, liu xia ren he zhen ju.
China Doll
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Woke up at 2+pm today. slept for a straight 12 hours. After 3 hours, that is 5pm+ i went to slp again. HAHA. SONG AH! din rest like this for a long time... OOo la la Ah Wee Wee~
Things are better for the time being. Mum nag me nicely just now. But i still very the bu shuang. Din talk back. She can forget abt me helpin her to pay her hp bill from now on. kns. nbbbb.. #$%^&8
Gonna open another bank a/c to put my savings. save save save.
When i get my pay, im gonna get a new pair of heels! mebbe a skirt. a mebbe a eyeshadow. and more slackin less shopping! I shall stop pampering myself with good food. i swear. its really makin me broke.
China Doll
Zuo ren zhen fan nao. Tou tong. Zen me ben.
I woke up with seriously swollen eyes this morning. Was so terrible. I got a shock outta my life. As if i just got beaten up. Worst still, i left my make up pouch in my locker at work. SO! I left my house with that frightening face.
The moment i stepped into Parkway, I saw Wani(Baleno) and Wee Keong(S&K).
Wani: AIYO! AH BOON! (Thats how Im being called at my workplace. Sounds so ah pek nia. sigh) WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU! LIKE PREGNANT WOMAN JUST GAVE BIRTH!
Me: HUH! WHAT?! NV PUT MAKE UP ONLY WHATTT! *frantic*
WeeKeong: HORHOR! YOUR EYEBAG JIALAT!
Me: -walk towards Ebase with lan lan attitude-
Sobz. So now u peeps know that I look like a person who had just given birth when I dun put make up.
NO HOR! Is because last night i cried like shit. My eyes are swollen, my complexion sucks!
Saying a big thank you to ANGELINA TAN KAH YING! Always encouragin me, talkin to me, consoling me when im going thru all these shit. No matter how much thank you i said will express my gratitude. MwaH! i love ya girl. haha.. mai gan dong ah.
Had fun during my first break. Was in S&K storeroom. Watched Wani, Herman and Zhi An bicker. Was hilarious! I cant stop laughing. haha. Zhi An is so cute laaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hermannnn toooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Starting to love Parkway already. haaaz! nice colleagues all around.
I am currently in good mood. But i know tml all the same shit will happened again. I may have said smth hurtful but i guess it is necessary. Im tryin to protect myself, my privacy my everything. You maybe my parents, but since u all have trained me to be independent since young, i don't expect u peeps to interfere my life right now. I love both of ya. yes i do. cos u guys are my parents. The one who took care of me, gave me shelter food and almost everything i needed for the past 16 years.
Since it's 16 years, u should know how my character is like. I don't like to defend myself. Cos i think it is a waste of time. but this world is so unfair that i have no choice. I din want to shout back i din want to talk back. I hope one day, u peeps will truly understand how i feel.
Im not being selfish. I noe how it is tough for both of you. Thats why i dun wish to add on to burdens by tellin my problems and troubles. I would rather turn to my friends. And i know they are good friends who will advise and guide me in the right path. They loved me. I loved them. Most imptly i love both of ya too.
Im never good at expressing my inner thoughts to both of ya. I cant. Cos i'll get all so emo.
Maybe one day, i'll see the light of my life.
Im missing my ex quite alot this few days. HAIYA! dunnoe la. fan nao.
China Doll
Monday, September 19, 2005
I almost wanted to kill.
I almost did.
I wanted to run away.
But I cant.
I know its my wrong to spend too much money.
But i insist that im not wrong to go out with my friends.
If you think i have a bf right now. FUCK U. Im not attached. Im happily single right now.
If you think my friends are bad influence. FUCK U. Angelina a bad influence? My colleagues bad influence? Ya lor. to you everybody in ebase consider bad influence. even my friends in school.
I will not quit my job. Cos i love what i am doing.
If you think everything that happened between u and father us entirely his fault. FUCK U. you are at fault too.
You may think that Im using what happened as an excuse. FUCK U. you nv know how i felt.
You can say that i need counselling, because i held a compass to sleep. Yes. i admit, i want to hurt myself again. So what's the big fuck? All you did was just scold and nag. Thats why father left u. Yes. Im immature. If i am, will i still be slogging so hard? will i be studyin so hard?
You always ask me to reflect. I did. But i din do anything wrong. Since when u reflected on what you did? All the while u think that u are the greatest mother on earth. wtf.
I still will not stop myself from enjoyin a life that a 17 years old girl should be enjoying. human only live young once. I will not let myself become another you in the future. narrow minded, proud, sarcastic old woman. damn u.
I lied to you because you nv believe what i said. because you opposed everything i do. because u think u are always in the right.
I've been tryin to change my spendin habits. i did change. but did u see it? no. u still think that im the same old me.
I really cant stand it. This is way too much.
China Doll
I promise, i will have a detail update about friday/saturday.
For today, day was kinda find. folding clothes to be overconed out and stuff. hehe. met the new staff. a TP student too. tall. =( so cheryl and me is the shortie dere. grr.. bwah.
Damn warehouse. Came at 9pm when we close at9.30pm. So we opening and bundling everything at 9pm. Ended at 1 am. wAH! 27 cartons. Im in charge of bundling. I love doing that actually. But it gives my pinky painful blister. ouch. The whole store was in a mess. Was too tired to take picture. hehe. Tml i still have to reach 7.30am Parkway's mac for breakfast! Argh. I'll try my best then. haz. I miss Jo! I miss Azlena!. Supposed to meet xiaomin after work to go town gia gia. but guess i will be tired and she cant make it. nvm! there wil be a next time! =D
In the mean time.. this is what i do when im bored at work during breaktime. PHOTOWHORING!
More photos tml after i end work. ^^
China Doll
Sunday, September 18, 2005
I am so damn fuckin pissed 'cause some one misplaced my camera cable and i cant transfer pictures to my com. WHAT THE HELLLLLL!!! FINE NO PICS WILL BE UPDATED FOR TODAYYYY! !@#%&*
China Doll
Friday, September 16, 2005
You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.
Being a somewhat gentle, emotional and sensitive person, you are at this time experiencing a considerable amount of tension. What you really need is someone who can be close to you and to listen to what you have to say.
There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.
You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.
Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.
I think, the above test, is very very accurate. Sigh. Life. Sigh. A though-provoking entry by weibin recently. Haha. Very cheem ah his entry. But all i have to say is easier to be said than done. Life is tough.
So tough! Im broke! SO SO SO BROKE! Sigh. Its very heart wrenching when u walk into a supermarket and see that all time favourite snack YOGURT is only sales. MEIJI YOGURT ANY 3 FOR $2.10! SOBZZZZZZZ... And i still have to clear my reservations. sigh.
Tomorrow and saturday will be slackin in town and work. HAHA!
Kenneth had been promoting himself to me. what the..? Self-promoting. sibei kns. haha.. For now, i think it is the best for me to remain single ba. My personality and my lifestyle is not cut out for commitment. I cant commit at all. It's not about time management. Its about other obstacles that i face from family and friends. My inability to trust is still still still not there. How?! I don't know. All the know is i shall work my ass off. So that i can go back m'sia with friends. GEE
Picture time! These pictures were taken when me and bestie were in town for the lion dance competition and slacking. Just a few pics! Bear with the ugliness. *Laugh*
Best left me right. i think i look damn sweet like this. MUAHAH aight. dun puke.
Cineleisure's Yuki Yaki. I KNOW I LOOK REAL IDIOTIC! but! it was fun!
meatball left fishball right. Omg. I cant believe i actually posed for this kinda picture. ignore my ugly teeth.
Yea! Im so happy that I had eaten a good meal that i cant help and twist with a chopstick. *grinz*
China Doll
Thursday, September 15, 2005
*Stares at my tagboard.*
*Burst out laughing*
Who exactly the hell is Mr. Long-Time-Admirer. Own up please. Don't play games. I hate it when people dun name themselves. Seems like they have no identities eh?
It's been ages since i had an admirer. Feels as if im back to secondary schools. haha.
Today wasn't too bad. Except that I am VERY broke. How bad can that be. Sigh. I don't know what the hell i am talking about. Bought cup noodles from Giant and put them into my locker. Have to survive on milos and cup noodles. Any kind souls wanna treat me to lunch/dinner?
Parkway is having a new part-timer. Amber. Yet to meet her. Heard that she worked in Ebase long time ago. Oh no. Hope there is good communication between the 4 Parkway babes. *heh* I wonder how old she is. Just afraid of generation gap. That's a v scary thing you know.
Sobz. I am very flabberghasted. Know why? COS I HAVE FLABBY ARMS!!! AND MY COLLEAGUE SAID IT IS V OBVIOUS *BANG HEAD ON WALLS* From now on, i will eat more fruits, less meat. Exercise my arms instead of my legs. (i have to say, im quite happy with my legs *giggle*). I've been walkin too much. Very much DEVASTATED
bahz. Changin my nails colour. Finally my nails are growin and not breakin! what colour neh? sick of black and red already. sighh....
China Doll
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
I am so darn bored. Rot at home for one whole day. Listen to my mom nag and scold and threw my temper. Slept the whole afternoon, watched tv play computer.
Chatted with weibin for quite abit. Talked about running away from home. haha.. was very surprised indeed. been receiving alot of messages from Wholivesnearyou.com. grr.. at least there is something to entertain me.. ROARRRR!
BORING! Played with my pooh and the green tortise i bought at Plaza Singapore yesterday. Very Cute!
the shirt is purple in colour! hehe.. nice colour! i like! Grape Pooh!
green tortise! restin o n mua bed. hehe...
grape pooh from side view! and my strawberry coloured nails! hehe.
upclose...
upclose... and personal.. muahahh uber cute!
pooh and cutie( the name i gave.. erm. abit act cute la. but.. i like! LOL) frennnzzzz.. hehe...
China Doll
Monday, September 12, 2005
First of all, i wanna say sorry to birthday girl. cos my mum ruin the day and i can only meet u in the late afternoon. SORRY! *bow*
For whatever is happening to me, i can say i did nothing wrong. and i insist. since i made no mistake, why should i admit mistakes? THERE IS NO MISTAKE FOR ME TO ADMIT.
Life is unbearable for me. I really cannot stand it. Don't force me to do things that are stupid. One day, i might just run away. Don't force me. and i repeat one more time. don't force me.
I'll be changing all my bad habit. im serious. changin.. for good...
China Doll
I just had a pack of strawberry flavoured yogurt. I'm happy! teehee! Yogurt makes me happy! Tralalala~ So does R&B!!
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China Doll
Sunday, September 11, 2005
I honestly feel like flinging myself out of da window.
i dun get what adults are thinkin nowadays.
My mum's being fucking ridiculous. whats wrong with going out to town for one whole day? I don't have the right to chill. Aight. Im gonna lose my rights already. so u peeps out dere shut up. I will stay at home and be a maid and listen to her scold me every now and than? Don't ask me out anything. I SHALL BE A MUMMY"S GIRL FROM NOW IT! __
Life is sucha bitch. Flirt it man. (taken from weekeong's blog)
Today was good. Pics to be uploaded when im in a better mood. for now, i don't feel like pickin up calls and replying messages.
Congratz Long Tian for winning the LionDance Champs. =) *throws confetti*
Everything sucks. I hate myself.
China Doll
Friday, September 09, 2005
bahz. am feeling rather unwell in my tummy. that v sick feeling. grr... i hate it. watched movie with my bro today. One more chance. Average only. some touching parts. but the ending i thought was rather retarded. LOL. bought him a billabong pencil box. went to work. heh. time pass so fast.
was talkin to jin hao. i told him sometimes i really feel liek givin up both my studies and work. den he said i have my friends. yea.. it's not about friends. i have fantastic friends. somehow somethings are just missing in my life.
Take care all my frens who are goin to NS tml. Fabian, Jin hao and breadtok. take care aight? hehe. u guys are gonna be soldiers! how cool is tt! haha
grrr... sibei sian now... if sorry can salvage everything, i will say that to u instead u say that to me.
This is a song that i particularly like. Westlife very first album. They are my idol too.
Miss You by Westlife.
I can't sleep, I just can't breathe
When your shadow is all over me baby
Don't wanna be, a fool in your eyes
Cos what we had was built on lies
And when our love seems to fade away
Listen to me hear what I say
I don't wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apart
I just wanna say it straight from my heart
I miss you
What would it take, for you to see
To make you understand that
I'llAlways believeYou and I, can make it through
And I still know, I can't get over you
Cos when our love seems to fade away
Listen to me hear what I say
I don't wanna feel
The way that I do
I just wanna be
Right here with you
I don't wanna see
See us apartI
just wanna say it straight from my heart
Oh baby, I miss you, I do
dedicated to my ex. =)
Pics for now. =) out in town. It was.. dunnoe how many weeks ago. ^^
me and angel
me and her. again! my face... look so retarded,,,
China Doll
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Got this from a blog that i read very often. I think her language is good and i love her entries. hehe. So, just do it for the sake of fun. heh.
Se7en things that scare me:
1. quarrels
2. fightings
3. having fat tummies and arms and thighs! *cries*
4. lizards! eek.
5. penniless.. this is bad...
6. all my beloved and besties leavin me.. sobsob.. thats not gonna happen right?
7. smth else.
Se7en things I like the most about me:
1. my nose!
2. my nicely layered yet messy, dry unkempt hair.
3. my eyelids despite makin my eyes look droopy
4. my naval stud! hiakhiak
5. my hipbones
6. my middle fingernails.
7. er... my ki-siao-ness
Se7en most important things in my room:
1. my queen size bed! omg. it is so so so so impt to me that i think i can jump sea if i ever have it gone.
2. my surround sound hi-fi! feel da basssss!
3. The box that safely keeps all the letters that i had exchanged between my beloved during the sec sch days.
4. the fan! so so so impt.
5. wardrobe!!!
6. cosmetic and accessorise box
7. my bolster..been with me for like -duh- years
Se7en random facts about me:
1. I noes how to play guzheng, dizi, ruan and almost alittle bit of every instrument u can find in a chinese orchestra. heh. sibei cheena right? LOL
2. i sleep with my hp next to my head. i think im gonna die of brain cancer soon.
3. i skipped a year in kindergarden? that explains my stupidity. hurhur.
4. i love paintin my nails, wait for it to dry and peel it off the next day. have been tryin to kick the habit
5. HEH IM PROUD TO SAY THAT I HAVE NV BEEN TO A CLUB! LLLA
6. Gets very depressed at night.
7. when i get tired, i dun talk much.
Se7en things I plan to do before I die:
1. to finish spending all my money
2. go round the world!
3. have a taste of professional rounding on professional bikes and cars. esp nissan 350Z!
4. to let everyone who are impt to me know my true feelins towards 'em.
5. to be taller.
6. go for facial and remove all ugly pimple b4 i die. i wanna die beautiful =D
7. go havoc in orchard road.
Se7en things I can do:
1. speak fast chinese? haha
2. not step into a cinema for 2 years. muahaha
3. shopping!
4. sleepin!
5. mop the floor very well? ehh! my mum say that de hor!
6. change of personality when with frenz and when with family.
7. this kind of bo liao things. LOL!
Se7en things I can't do:
1. i cannot remember v well.
2. drive?
3. go out and havoc.
4. keep my room neat
5. put things back into their place at home
6. i cant really control my tears
7. mood swings. argh.
Se7en things I say the most:
1. ehhhh what what what?
2. fuck u
3. nb
4. huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh?
5. yo?
6. what sia
7. shit u.
China Doll
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
haha. all i have to say is mr. ethan guo u rockkkkkkkkk!!!!! im counting on essgraph. !!
weeeee... i shall do well for medsoc toooo!!!! heheheheh -skips away-
China Doll
Monday, September 05, 2005
I know my marketin exam is over and there is no point complaining. But just let me whine a while k? At least it will make me feel alot better.
I FUCKIN SCREWED MY MARKETING PAPERR! 30 MARK QUESTIONNNNN!!!!! I DID EVERYTHING WRONGLY!!! sobz.. i dun wanna take supp paper.... sobz... well, at least there is a supp paper for me to take. sobz.
China Doll
Sunday, September 04, 2005
That few sentences may not be directed right at me. But i do know how it is to feel having ur father to say : Wo yao ta for what.
Even a mature male adult of 20 years old cant take that sentence. Me, as a sister feel so disappointed, upset, heartbroken and angry. How irresponsible it is for you to say that. I am so ashame. How can that few sentence be said right in front. I don't care it is said with or without intention. All i know that no matter how mature/sensible a person can be, no one can take that. Those words slashed right into my heart. Unbearable. Tears just formed before i knew it. Lets not say how much those sentences has hurt my brother. Cos he cried.
so so so ashame.
China Doll
Dig out some old photos. All i wanna say is Everybody's Changing.
my younger bro reuben and me. cute right?
my elder bro Alfred, reuben and me.
was my kor de bdar. heh.
3 of us.
i like this picture alot. so cute!
Sigh. everybody's changin.
China Doll
Saturday, September 03, 2005
work is so so fun today. cos there's lotsa nice customers and gd sales! teehee.
I was reading weekeong's blog. I found what he said is so true. It's not that we are constantly complainin how tired we are to work and study at the same time. But it is a hardcore fact. Many of u would say give up the job and concentrate on study. Yes. We know that. But after we quit, how are we, people who faces family and financial problems, going to survive? Go bet toto or 4D and pray to strike? HAHA.
It sometimes irks me to see people, who are fortunate enough to have their parents giving them so much pocket money and sponsoring every single cent they spent, complain that life is so boring and they want to work.
Two words for you people. Fuck You. Think working and studying is fun? NOT FUN AT ALL. It is so fucking tiring.
Yes, the money you get every month. Best part of working. To me, what's the big fuck? Get pay, pay bills, transportation, food and miscellaneous. What happens in the end? Penniless.
I may sound abit harsh. But Im just trying to say what i think. The ultimate point, it is tough to juggle between work and study. Trust me. Wo shi guo lai ren.
Oka. Enough of all this shit. I had my holidays all planned out! HOORAYYYY!!!
During the holidays, I am going to...
* SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP AND SLEEP!
* SHOP SHOP SHOP AND SHOP!
* SLACK SLACK SLACK AND SLACK!
* PLAY PLAY PLAY AND PLAY!
* Work -like duh-
* Brush up my English
* Save -i dun think it is possible.-
China Doll
Thursday, September 01, 2005
It's 2.22am. here i am bloggin'. Feeling hungry and sick. I dun wish to open my mouth and talk cos my throat is burning. Tml.. no... today.. in the late morning goin to school to study. Kinghar's on mc so i cant ask her question face to face. will give her a call. Work after that. hoorah! i love work! bahz..
is anybody gonna send me liang teh and fetch me home after work tml? *cries*