China Doll
Monday, October 31, 2005
Haha. Right nowI am updating from Malaysia using my uncle's computer. Lucky he's computer is using cable. So I can use as long as I want. Hehe.
Reached Kajang at around 11pm+ my uncle took us to eat. Yummy! Those food that you would not get to eat in Singapore. WOOT!
Went to my 4th uncle's bungalow to sleep. SONG AHHH!!!!! 2 queen size bed put together. Can roll from one end to another. SONG AH!!!
Woke up early today, went to had my favourite roti prata. It's really different from Singapore's. Their prata is very thin, yet crispy at the same time soft. Not like S'pore's that tasted like flour. -.-
Went to Putrajaya, the what I call "Government City". Because all the buildings there are meant for government use. Had my IC changed. Me and my mum waited at the building from 12pm to 3.30pm. Guess what I did in between? I slept at the bench without giving a damn about my image. WHY?! Cos no one knows me ma.. =X Stare all they want lor. They wun get to see me for a second time ma. =X
So we went back after having all the things done. Went to have Chary Kway Teow. Also different from S'pore. Aiya. No point describing. You guys have to taste it to know what's the difference. After that is SHOPPING TIME!!!
THERE WERE SHOE SALES EVERWHERE!!!!! MY MUM AND I WENT BONKER!! BUY AND BUY!!!.. HAHA SO LONG NEVER SHOP LIKE THAT LE! FUCKING HAPPY!
Bought 2 pair of shoes, a converse bag, 2 rings, a tee and many la... TML WILL BE EVEN MOREEE!!!!!
Aight pic time. Shall show u the pictures of my 4th uncle kid.
Superman wannbe.More pictures to comeee! AWAITTT!!
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In malaysia I also wanna emo.
Different people different kind of life. I must learn how to accept my own life.
China Doll
Sunday, October 30, 2005
This few days not in the mood to blog. Tomorrow I'll be leaving Singapore for Malaysia. I think also sian. No money to spent. No people to accompany my shopping. Still have to face all this shitz. S I A N Z!
Past few days were just work work work.
I swear I will come back from Malaysia with at least 2 pair of shoes, 5 tops and 3 bottoms and many many accessorise.
China Doll
Friday, October 28, 2005
YEA! Its pay day. But the thought of saving and spending makes me alittle sian.
Its only a day since Angel left for Bangkok. I missed her already. =(
Oh. Might be meeting yujie for cuppa caffeine before heading to work.
So many things to buy. Don't know where to start from. Sigh.
China Doll
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
I've been thinkin about my birthday celebration. Seriously I don't know what to do. Cause Im not suppose to celebrate on the actual day. So most probably, on the 5th of novemeber. A Saturday! FANTASTIC!
But do what?
Sigh.
- Pubbing. I was thinkin about Angel's brother pub at Boat Quay.
- KTV?! BWAHHHH! Like tt abit funny leh. Confine to one room.
- Stay at home and sleep! *WTH!*
- Crash town? *SO BORING!*
- Clubbing. The last resort. GASPS! =X Chinablack. No. Zouk. No. MS. MU. RUSH. MOS Club X. huh... techno.. =( Limbu wan r&b club.
Die la.. boring 17 birthday.
As for my birthday, ideally are those I've mention before la.. esp when im in need of perfume and watch. But nvm! As long as is sincere de prezzie. me will love u guys like crazy!!!
My beloved angel is going to bangkok tml already. =( Take care aight.... will miss u la.. no worries la.. -.- *hugz and kisses.* Have a safe trip.! Have to work, so cant send u off. awww... =)
China Doll
Monday, October 24, 2005
Was fuckin hyper during work. LALA..
After work, met up with Angel to go to Downtown East to pass prezzie and we went to Pasir ris Beach to slack.
Met up with Wayne to pass him his birthday prezzie. Didn't crazh his chalet. So paiseh. Haha.
It's been a long time since I feel serenity, with the cooling breeze blowing right into our face, at the beach at night! So romantic sia.
Before that we went to Cheers to buy alcohol and snacks. As usual Barcadi. *Cheers!* We bought 3 bottles altogether.
We did not have the opener, so we got the girl at don't-know-where to help us open. Since the bottle is opened, I had to hold on to 2 bottle. Naturally, Im being portrayed the drunkard by Angelina Tan Kah Ying.
PLEASE IGNORE MY FACCCCEEE!! TODAY IS BAD FACE DAYYYY!! There u go. One lime and the other peach.
Oops. Caught drinking. -.- When the hell did that girl capture this??? =.=
So we walked tothe beach. Sat at the benches. With chips on one hand and Barcadi on the other. AhhhhH! Heaven!
The view from where we are to the jetty. I think it's the jetty. =X Those lights are form the ships.
Reflections on the sea. Fascinating.
The sea was very foggy. Can't really see anything. Then, I thought, why the one beside me is the wrong person! AIYA! haha.. kkiez. jokin.. I think, as long as it is your loved ones, it is good enough. Cherish every moment.
Both of us didn't really talk much. Just enjoy the breeze. Partly was because the headache in my head was killin me and I am too tired.
Lets just end here. The throbbin headache is making me realy sick.
China Doll
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Yesterday, I did a very emo emo emo post. However, stupid blogger cocked up and my post wasn't published. Fuck blogger.
To sum it all up, my dad came to see me when I was working and I got VERY emo that I cried in the storeroom.
After work, met Jin Hao and he walked me home. Tall guy. TSK!!!
Thats all!
After I got my pay, Im gonna get:
- Foundation
- Blusher. *I think*
- Dumbbells
- Tees
- Novels *recommendation please? be it chinese or english ba.*
Im still thinkin whether I should get another cap. hmm.. Still considering. Argh! Fan Nao!!
I need another watch. Cos my Swatch watch is from some unknown ppl. and it is OLD! Sigh.
What
A
Lousy
POST!
China Doll
Saturday, October 22, 2005
There is this feeling in me.
I cant sleep again.
Sigh.
Tomorrow I will feel tired again.
Amazingly, no even one stick was touched.
Changing for good.
For myself.
For my future.
And for everyone else.
Im dying to get my conch pierced. Heeren tt shop do sell vouchers *pLuuuUueEeEaSssEee?*
I finished my Lancome Miracle's perfume. Sobz........
I need to eat proper meal.
ARGHHHHH!
China Doll
Friday, October 21, 2005
TODAY WAS FUCKING
FUN
FUN
FUN
and
MORE FUN!!!
K SONG WAS FUN!
SLACKIN IN TOWN WAS FUN!
PUFFING MY HEALTH AWAY was errr... FUN?! haha.
Am too tired to upload pics.
Talkin to tons of people on msn.
Will upload tml.
Here's one to let u guys see first ah.
Andy lau wor!! Was singing the song "Bing Yu". Literally Freezing Rain. Nice song aight! Shuai right? This picture I capture one hor!
As I was saying, Im chattin to quite alot of people online now.
There's one thing I would like to mention.
There is this xiaomeimei. Till now I don't know her name. She is 13 years old and want to work in Ebase. She likes makeup but I look at her picture she doesn't have any makeup on. Ok. It aint visible. She says she is very interested in makeup and ask me whether there is any makeup course in polytechnic *WTF?!?!*
I thought she would know alot on makeup so I chatted with her on M.A.C and Bobbi Brown. She doesn't know any of them. *WTF?!?!* I told her to go in Tangs to walk around more and familiarise herself with all the brands before getting her mind set on doing makeup courses. AND! SHE DOESNT KNOW THE PRICE OF TAKING UP MAKEUP COURSES! *WTF?!?!* How can someone be interested in this manner?
She likes Ebase clothes alot. She hopes to work in Ebase in return for the staff discount *WTF?!?!* She thinks that working in Ebase is funky, stylish and fun. In a way, yes it is. In another way, there is so many things going on behind the scene don't they know? If she wanna work in Ebase just for the staff discount, that is a high price to pay. Moreover, the staff discounts are limited. *WTF?!?!*
5 WTF altogther. HEH! oh! Thats the 6th one. LOL
How to work with this kinda mentality u tell me? It's so innocent. Ok. Put it in a crude way. THEY ARE SO NAIVE! Tsk! Kids nowadays. *Shake head*
Oh ya. When I say "Sugar Dreamz" you don't reply me "Strawberry Dreamz". It aint funny. It aint innovative. It TURNS me off.
China Doll
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Lao niang kan si lang happy can. Know why? Expected pay: $800+
AFTER CPF SOMEMORE!
U TELL ME HOW TO BE NOT HAPPY!!!!!!
Lao niang know what to do. Dun need nag me.
This time die die also put $250 aside for savings. $200 in bank. $50 ask Angel help me keep.
About $200 put aside for food and transportation.
About $100 for hp bill.
About $70 take go back msia shopping.
The rest leh? SPEND LA.
Hao la. No worries. Will try to save de ok? Mai niam me liao. *pulls hair*
Out of the blue, I suddenly realise Angel goes Bangkok. on the 26th to 31th. Lao niang 3oth go back Malaysia leh! She come back I go! For that whole period she in Bangkok I in Singapore how?? No one to slack and bitch around with leh! Will die one! IF I MOOD SWING NO ONE TO CALL LEHHH! =(
Then when she come back leh? I IN MALAYSIA LEHHH!!! LIKE SHE FIND WHO TO SLACK FIND WHO TO BITCH?!?! SObz.
Yes. We do love each other very much. See below.
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The huggin pic sibei loving hor? muahaha..Lala. Work was boring. Zz... Havin slight headache. After work JinHao called me and talk till I reached home. His bunkmates sibei funny..
"Ehhh BU YAO MO WO DA TUI!!"
"EHHH BU YAO LUAN LUAN TUO!!!"
"Hao la.. Yi qi shui jiao"
WTH!
China Doll
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
It's been a long time since I have a photoful post.
Here's how my day went.
Woke up early at 7am. Went for shop meeting at Bugis. Was the first one to reach. Waited. Whole meeting lasted till 10am+. After the meeting, photo whoring all the way. We even shouted "HUAT AR!" So... cheena style. But never mind. I like!
Elli! She's a full timer at Parkway. I like her! ^^
Azlena and me! Oh god! I do love her man. She's my khaki. Bitchy pose. Thats what Stacy said. HAHA! EEK! Fat Arms!!!.
Anyway, lena was damn crappy today. The word "sweet talk" was mentioned. Then she suddenly said "M F".
Everybody's reaction: *Blur* What M F?
Lena: You all don't know meh? I now fasting cannot say vulgar.
Me (was sitting right next to her): ORHHH! *mouth the word mothafucker*
Everybody (including me): *Blur* What has mothafucker gotta do with sweet talk?
Lena: You all don't know meh? All never go school ah? I learnt from school de leh.
Everybody: *Blur*
Jo: Never mind. Continue with meeting.
FUNNY RIGHT?!?!? *LMAO*
After the meeting, phototaking session!!!!
Group photo!! How united we are? Haha. With the word "EBASE" shining right above.Everybody from Century Square(CSQ), Parkway Parade(PWP) and Bugis (BJ) attended the meeting.
Namely:
CSQ
- Irene
- Corene
- Rosabel aka Bel
- Lindy
- Jovina
PWP
- Cheryl
- Sally
- Elli
- Me!
BJ
- Joanna aka Jo
- Azlena aka Lena
- Stacy
- SiYing
Except for:
- Adelene
- Amber
Thats all I guess.
After all those siao char bor-ing. Jovina, Bel and me who happens to be not workin for the day decided to head down to Mac to slack awhile.
Bel and Jov
Da Ebase Laydees
Bel and me!
Aight. Laming.
After the slacking, I made my way down to Angel's house to nua. Cos It doesnt pay to nua at her house. HAHA
her niece~ Girlgirl! Cutsie!
The way Angel nua. =X
Me and girlgirl on bed. Oops
Playing!
Angel hiding.
We had a great time talking about the past. HAI! LOL
Some of the pictures cannot be uploaded. Not very sure why. But I had a hard time uploadin those pictures. Am alittle piss already. Damn.
China Doll
Monday, October 17, 2005
I tried my very best to sleep just now.
But I still cant.
Nope. Im not getting emo.
Just darn bored.
So, now I am here, blogging away in the living room.
Weather's perfect for sleepinnnnngg! But why cant I sleep!?!?!?!
Shop meeting tml. Will crashed Angel's house in the afternoon. Do what? Not sure. Just crap and slack around. Oh yes. I foresee photowhoring. heh.
blah. Sometimes I wonder why I am not as lucky as the others. Sigh. I am hungry =(
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I wanna eat warm choco cake. Anyway, after shop meeting i will have nowhere to go in Bugis as I predict it will end at before 11am. I will only crash angel's house after her dental appointment which is around 2pm+. What will I do during that period of time? I don't know. Which kind soul wanna treat me to warm choco cake? hehe? Rhumba would be good too. Or maybe to a session of pool? HEH!
Off I go to try and sleep again. Gotta wake up at 7am. =(
China Doll
Sunday, October 16, 2005
I reached my workplace in a rather bad mood. Not very sure why. Maybe it's bad hair day. hmm...
But my spirit was lifted slightly afterwards. Sales was damn good. We managed to close a 1.8K, hitting our target. Im sure my manager will be happy. Of course, incharge's happy. She treated us to Sccopz ice cream. HOORAY! It's been a long long long lonnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg time since I've eaten ice cream. Durian flavor somemore. Yummy YUM!
Then, I made my way down to Block 201 to meet MinFei to get my money back. haha. Den went home.
Readd this article about a man, who went to his wife and child's grave EVERYNIGHT. He stayed faithful to his wife. This has been going on for 4 years. FOUR FREAKING YEARS. I cant help but cry in the bus. It was damn touching. Im suppose to bring back the paper and then scan it in and show it to you guys. But i forgot. There was this v touching line which after i read, i burst out crying.
Had a little chat with Cindy. It was quite a good chat. She said something that really got me thinkin about the relationship I had.
"When u gain something, you will also lose something."
Thought provokin eh?
Those days, I would rather spend my time with friends than accompany him in his lan shop. He would rather spend his time with his friends than coming down and fetch me from work. Thats why, we lost each other. Simple as that. =)
Then, she said, "Thats life."
Think about it.
Im glad, angel's feeling better. I am feeling better. In fact Im in good mood.
Bahh.... Going back Malaysia on 30th Oct till 5th Nov I think. Argh! not sure how am i suppose to be feeling.
Here's a highly recommended song. I love the lyrics. Check it out =):
We Belong Together (Mariah Carey)
I didn’t mean it when I said
I didn’t love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should have let you go
I didn’t know nothing,
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn’t have fathomed
I would ever be without your love
Never imagined I’d be sitting
Here beside myself
Guess I didn’t know you
Guess I didn’t know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I’m feeling
Now that I don’t hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don’t have a choice
Oh what I wouldn’t give
To have you lying by my side
Right here cause baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby We belong together
I can’t sleep at night
When you are on my mindBobby Womack’s on the radio
Singing to me “If You Think You’re Lonely Now”
Wait a minute this is too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial tryin’ to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface“I Only Think Of You” and it’s breakin’ my heart
I’m tryin’ to keep it together but I’m falling apart
I’m feeling all out of my element
Throwing things, crying tryin’
To figure out where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain’t even half of what I’m feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby We belong together
When you left I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on when times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby baby
We belong together
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Those were the days. OooO i like this pic alot.
China Doll
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Was being called to relief Junction 8 last minute. Surprisingly saw Jason there at S&K too. Same situation as me. Haha.
Working at J8 together with Sophia and Jobine was great! Good crowd too. Talked about tons of things ranging from facial spa to ghost stories. hehe! Sophia has become so chattable! Goody!
A pity was that Huibin aka BinBin went to Bugis to relief and I don't get to see her! Awww! I haven seen her for ages. Did write down messages for her. Hehe.
Definitely enjoy my work today. Hope later in the afternoon, things would be the same at Parkway. But Im not v positive about that. Getting really sick of Parkway. Transfer me please! Back to Bugis! I don't mind Plaza Singapura thou. Nope. Not Century Square. It is so boring there. Of course, my colleagues will also be one of the factors affecting my thoughts on where to be transfered to. Sounds like geography/social studies. EEk.
I wanna apologise for the past few emo emo days of mine. Sorry to all my friends who tolerated my bad attitude, constant whining and blowing my top. But I am still emo!!!! =(
Guohong msged me jio me go drinkin. Sibei gian. Unfortunately, I cant. =( Next time ba. Mebbe.
China Doll
Friday, October 14, 2005
I've just eaten maggie mee and I am feeling much much more better now. Not sure why. Thats the way I am feeling now.
I just realized I have too much emo emo post. Makes me sound like a whiner (?).
Shall talk about work. Work in Century Square is forever BORING. Boring crowd. Luckily, I have beloved Irene and Corene! They are both sister mind you. Chio bus ah!
And guess what?!?!?! I SAW BAO AND CHERYL OH MYYYY GOOOOOODDDDDDDD! Started our sanpat(bitching) session right in front of Ebase. No customer. So I don't bother about the shop. lalala... Have a great time bitching siiiaa.. i misss themm..
Saw Trixie, Min Juan and many familiar faces. Min Juan stayed around and talked. Cos she's bored Im bored! haha.. Thats the good thing about working in Century Square. FWAH!
Lotsa laughing with Irene. She is so damn kawaii. Laughing over the slightest matter. She brightens up my day always. =D I do enjoy talkin to her very much.
Oh no. Getting emo again. Bye.
China Doll
In my whole 17 years of life, year 2005 is the year that is filled with regrets.
It dawned me that for many things I had done, I could have done it better.
Since there are so much regrets, we learn from what we have done.
Thats why, I spent many sleepless night thinking.
This whole year wasn't fucking fantastic.
For all the mistakes I have done, I tried to change.
But did anyone ever see me changing? Did anyone believe I was changing? Did anyone trust me to change?
It takes time to change. But did anyone give me ample time to prove that I am changing? Was I ever given the chance to show that I am changing?
If yes, why am I still hearing those reproaching words? Was enough time ever given to me before anything else was said?
I know I was once wrong. I'm trying hard.
I feel injustice. But what can I do?
Do I ever have the chance to voice out my unhappiness? Did anyone ever listen to what I have to say?
At times, I really feel like detaching myself from everyone. I feel like drowning myself in my own fantasy. How long can this last? Face it HueyWen. Life is simply unfair.
China Doll
Thursday, October 13, 2005
I've been fucking down for the past few days. Or rather the past few weeks.
Aint very sure why is it so. But everything around irks me. Things around me didn't really offend me. Somehow, i just feel irritated by EVERYTHING.
For no reason, I can start crying. Just like 5 minutes ago when I logged myself into MSN.
Out of the blue, for numerous time, while watching a comedy, I suddenly feel like crying. Like wtf!?!
I think of work, I get very pissed. I think of school, I feel very stressed.
I think about everything else I have to do.
All I can say is I hate my life right now.
I know friends out there show their concern and care for me. They reason out all the things that happened. Yes yes. I know you guys care. Zhong Yan Ni Er.
But I just simply don't feel like listening. Don't ask me if I can take what is happening to me and my family. Stop asking me whether Im alright. Stop asking me to take things in my stride. Stop asking me to cheer myself up. Stop telling me "I'll be there if you need someone."
I know you peeps out there care. But all of ya should also know my character. I don't usually pour my woes to many people. Because I DONT LIKE IT. I will feel like a burden to people around me. And oh, don't tell me "No la.. where got burden... good friends ma.."
Yes yes. I do love my friends alot. But its.... just something not right.
Not that I don't appreciate at all. Just that... depression? I think so. Or is it PMS? Maybe a combination of both.
When I need someone to talk, everyone would be busy.
When I want to be alone, everybody come flooding me.
Why like that? =(
BAHHHHH! Feel like flinging myself out of the window. Just let me say this sentence tainted with sucidal thoughts can? Cause I can only say and not do. At least saying makes me feel lotsa better.
XingYi says my entries getting more and more emotional. How can don't be emo? So many things happened. So many things changed.
I feel so insignificant compared to others. People who rich, people who look good, people with good results, people with the freedom they needed. Im so green with envy.
Nope. Not tryin to shoot anyone here. Just tryin to make myself feel better.
Tian Kong.
China Doll
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
I cannot get to sleep.
But I'm tired.
I read through all my testimonials given to me by my friends.
I smiled.
They were the ones always there for me. Those were the days I truely felt that the world was wonderful.
I felt love. I felt concern. I felt care. They meant so much to me.
I still remember my Chinese Orchestra practises. Those angels were Cheryl, Bao and Bird. We had joy we had fun. I remembered I broke a glass panel. U guys covered it up for me. Threw away the broken glass pieces. Acted as nothing happened. But we burst out laughing. haha. How memorable.
I remember the mugging times in the library for O levels. Together with my best bud. I was actually amazed how I could concentrate so much in doing my work. Maybe it's the atmosphere, maybe it was my best bud. I don't know. But depsite being frustrated from studying, I've enjoyed those times thoroughly.
I remember the days when me and charmaine, together with other schoolmates, walked to Ngee Ann Sec for Higher Chinese lesson. We purposely walked slowly, stop by every provision to by tidbits. How we copied for our spelling test. Because we never studied. I remembered how we insulted our teacher for being a sissy.
I remembered my class. I remembered where I sat. I remembered what I wrote on my table. I remembered what me and my beloved did during the secondary school days.
Those were the days.
I cried.
I read the testimonial given to me by KaiChong.
When he first called me sweetie pie. I flew to the sky. When he messaged me and told me he buang again. My heart bled for him.
During my O levels, he was the one always listening to my complains, my whinings. He nagged at me to study. Scolded me if i slacked. But at the same time, he showered me with care and concern that I never had. I encouraged me that really motivates me to study.
He said things that I like to hear. Message me sweet things in the middle of the night. Sang for me in the phone. All the songs by Z Chen, never fails to remind me of him. He sang so well. Played mahjong and talked to me at the same time.
- bi shang yan jing ren zhu lei bie ku qi. mo ri qian xi qing liu zai wo huai li-
I read the testimonials given to me by Chris.
We used to talk on the phone till late night. He likes to tell me the story plot of My Date with Vampire. While he talk, I paint my nails. He likes to say that I always turn one round and shoot him. I remember the "too much! si bu liao! liao bu qi! kns! so what! (so on and so forth)" That was the game we played.
He always say wo dui ta bu hao. Den i will retort him " bu yao jiang wo dui ni bu hao. Rang ni ying" He came to fetch me from work send me to work. Be it in Parkway, Bugis or Bishan. I even made my way down to Hougang to have breakfast with him.
How I like to call him ah beng. thou he don't like it. He held my hands at MPH. I didn't really have any change in my expression. But I held his hands too. I watched him played arcade. I laughed at him for being lousy.
-wo yao xie xie ni ni gei de ni na zou de yi qie hai ai ni dai yi dian hai yao shi jian cai neng ping hen-
I smiled. I cried. For those whom I've loved.
China Doll
Monday, October 10, 2005
I think.
Wo Xiang.
I think day and night.
Wo ri xiang ye xiang.
I think rain or shine.
Xia yu ye xiang. Qing tian ye xiang.
I think walking or sitting.
Zou lu xiang Zuo zhe ye xiang
Everyday, I think about...
This two jacket. I simply love the first one. White in colour. Saw it at Pacific PLaza when it came out just not long.
The blue one. AHHHHH! MY FAVE LAAA! I LIKE THE PURPLE ONE ONE! IF NOT THE WHITE ONE!!!!!!!!! $99!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but gopal say i wear the purple look like malay. Dun care la. Malay jiu malay. Limbu is MALAYsian.
So... everyday.. i think abit this 2 piece of good looking cloth. HAHA.
This is OFFICIALLY added to my birthday wishlist. HIAK HIAK!
China Doll
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Supposed to be a sunshine babe for the day. But due to the weather and other unforeseen reason, the trip was cancelled. So me and Angel crashed town. Again.
Firstly, we went down to Plaza Singapura and slacked around. Went to Ebase and fool around. It was really fun.
Me narcissing in the fitting room. HEE! Not much customer at that time ma. hehe.
Me and Aichuan! Xiao chuan chuannnn! hahaha... She ah, can nv take a proper picture. Keeps moving around. TSK! She is damn cute k! haha. I LOOK FATTT!! 
Julie and mee!! She's a full timer at PS too.! My colleaguesss! AHhhhHhh~
After all the messing up of places and stuff, we headed to Far East Plaza and Wisma. Saw a number of ppl. Namely Cassie baby, cara. ivonne, lilac... Bahh.... Saw Xiangling, Xingyi and Shi min AT FEP!!!!!
Xiang ling and me! Didn't see her for a long long time.. sighh...
Shimin and me! A junior! hehe.
Xingyi and meeee! OH MY GOD I DO MISS HER SO MUCHHHH!!
Bought 2 bunch of beaded bracelet for $5. Cheap shoppin thrill.
After that went down to the Taka fountain to rest of aching legs. Haiz. undesirable happenings. Lets not mention.
Went to Cineleisure to play pool.
The moment i stepped into the place, I saw my ex-boyfriend. Wasn't very sure whether it is him not. Angelina chided me.
"Your ex boyfriend u also dunnoe ah?!"
Haiya. I really dunnoe ma. Didn't get to see him dress like this in the past de ma.
But then, I confirmed it is him later. Don't know why. Just that very sure feeling there.
Saw the way he played billiard. Didn't really take notice of his skill. Been looking at his face all the time while waiting for an empty table.
Then, "Wang bu liao" by Ben C was played. Suddenly got the urge to cry when looking at him. Sigh.
Finally he saw me. Smiled and wave at him. I think he was shocked to see me. Cos his action was abit slow. haha. Neither did I expect to see him too. Its been like -donkey- months since i last saw him. Got abit sad. But, managed to shake off that feeling for a moment. Now it's all coming back.
Got our table played for an hour or so. Halfway through, I've been thinkin about him. There was one time, we were at Parkway, he kept pestering me to play pool with him. But i didn't want to because my skills are like kns. And he said: "whats there to be paiseh between the two of us de?" (P/S: we were together at that time). But he kept asking and asking and i kept rejecting and rejecting.. He wanted very much to see me play pool. Now. Me and him. In the same place. he could have seen me playing pool. But since, everything is different.
Went home. Mom showed me attitude. Dun know whats her problem again. damn.
China Doll
I apologise for the late updates excluding all the emo emo posts. HAHA. aight. photoful post. Enjoy!
Wednesday
Worked with Sally full shift. Both of us wore boots.! hehe. So cool! Very hongkong street style. I likeee!
blurry. Cos my hands shaked. Agar-agar got the picture right?? We were so excited about our boots. hehe. and ta-dah! We made good use of the full length mirror *smirk*
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Our boots! and I edited with erm.. my lousy photoshop skills. hehe. was just playing around. I like that glow I did to Sally's name. hehe.Was bored with work. So during my break time, photos photos and more photos! The problem with having a camera with me. HEHE.
Winky us!
Yo right????? muahaha.. me likey so muchiieee! black grey red pink. MY STYLE! HAHA!
another one.
I think this picture is super duper stylo milo ovaltine. HEHE.
Thats all for wednesday.
Thursday
Slept till 12noon. Supposed to meet up with Angeline jie and Janice jie. But, last minute cannot make it. So i continued to nua at home till 3pm before making my way down to Parkway and then Bugis.
Went down to Parkway, Wani, one of my best bud from Baleno had not left. So.. erm.. photowhore again. Paiseh ahh..
The girl named Wani! haha. sweet! and funny. haha.
^^ Then both of proceeded to Bugis and photowhore inside Bugis toilet. HAHA
LOL!!!!!!! Pardon usss! Stil have quite alot of photos. Am lazy to put all up. LOlz.
Then, I met up with my girl Angelina Tan. Got a shock to see her new hairstyle. LOL
Had pastamania for dinner. Slacked at Bugis Street. Then we had Ah Chew's Dessert. Cannot be compared to the one at Chinatown. Chinatown's the bestt!
Tio Snapshot by angel LOL!!!End of Friday.
As for today. haiya. dun talk about it le. Lets update my Birthday wishlist.
High on da list:
- A Braun Buffle or Renoma wallet. I don't mind a authentic Christian Dior or Burberry though. heh.
- Pierce my conch. A choice of $48 or $70+. Of course $48 right? heh. But $70 is the more reliable one at Heeren.
- Perfume Christian Dior Addict Me. If too expensive, Lancome Miracle So Magic or Lancome Miracle will do. Buy the big bottle hor. mai niao k. LOL
- A Swatch watch.
- A swarovski crsystal studed naval stud. Cost about $100+
- Apple Nano mp3. Err... Being a nice person, I'll also accept Creative/other brands la. LOL.
- SPONSORED SHOPPING TRIP! HAHAHAHAH -
China Doll
Friday, October 07, 2005
I did not really want to go to the family court.
The fear to face everything.
In a state of confusion.
When i saw my dad came alone. My heart sank. How i wish he did not come. But this will mean that he is a coward. On the other hand, im glad he came, so that everything wil be solved quickly.
Inside the family court, the silence was deafening. I cant help but keep tearing. Somehow i managed to control them from descending; by popping lotsa sweets into my mouth.
I was surprised to see so many people divorcing in one day. No wonder Singapore government's worried.
Everything ended. I don't dare to look at him. He is alone. Why aint my uncles there? At least it would make me feel better to see someone is there for him. Whether or not he is in the right or wrong. Cos he's a human afterall. Seems that my dad doesnt have any support. Physically or mentally. Maybe it is just a feeling of pity for my dad. I don't know.
The ultimate feeling in me is sadness.
China Doll
Thursday, October 06, 2005
I am supposed to be in good mood. But then i was pissed off by words from my mom.
How do you expect me to make comments when I did not witness everything myself?
Then, u come and say i dun care or whatever shit. Fucking hurtful k.
Don't make everything sound as if u are in the right. Cos u have some wrongs.
Don't come and say those ljw. Say so many problems already and we are making u angry.
HARLOW!
You are the narrow minded one. Tryin to take control of everything. Always think u are in the right, making the right decisions.
But actually u din care for our feelings.
You can choose not to be angry.
You are just making life miserable for yourself.
" Bu yao geng ni men jiang tao duo. Jiang le ni men ye bu dong ye bu guan de."
what de... THEN DUN COME AND TALK TO ME IN THE FIRST PLACE LA. KNN
DON'T COME AND SAY IT IS OUR FAULT! nb.
China Doll
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Random thoughts. Pardon me.
I wish i don't have to work tomorrow so I can sleep the whole day.
I wanna watch Corpse Bride, Everlasting Regret and that Andy Lau's show.
I always say I wanna watch movie but never did.
I'm starting to hate work. and myself.
I want to pack my room.
I need to get myself a pair of pink stocking to go with my boots. Yes. Pink.
Angeline Tan Kah Ying, I have not seen you for ages. Yes. I miss you! BAH!
I feel so lonely.
I am so sick of Parkway Parade.
I'm going to meet Angeline Jie and Janice Jie on Thursday. HOORAY!
Still making the decision whether I should go to court with mom and bro on friday. Sigh
I want to have liposuction on my arms. =( I hate my flabby arms.
Gonna die without r&b.
Lao niang wants to dance.
Lao niang wants to drink Graveyard, Sex on the beach, Gin and Tonic, Bloody Mary.
Need to get skirts.
Oh shit. Mental Block.
Oh. I am so jealous of everybody around me. =(
I think I'm starting to hallucinate.
PMS. Pardon me.
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Birthday Wish list. Still a long way to go. But im giving u guys time to save up yea?
High on da list:
-A Braun Buffle or Renoma wallet. I don't mind a Christian Dior or Burberry though. heh.
-Pierce my conch. A choice of $48 or $70+. Of course $48 right? heh. But $70 is the more reliable one at Heeren.
-Perfume Christian Dior Addict Me. If too expensive, Lancome Miracle So Magic or Lancome Miracle will do. Buy the big bottle hor. mai niao k. LOL
-A swarovski crsystal studed naval stud. Cost about $100+
-Apple Nano mp3. Err... Being a nice person, I'll also accept Creative/other brands la. LOL.
-SPONSORED SHOPPING TRIP! HAHAHAHAH -lame-
Can't really think of others. Will update. Please take note. HAHA
China Doll
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Never Ever
- All Saints
A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find
My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate
I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah
Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazyI
'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long
Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right
I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah
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A very nice song. Back track to 1997. =) Check it out. This song somehow reflects exactly my feelings.
Sigh.
I've been making many many many mistakes at work. Caused so much inconvenience and trouble. G.U.I.L.T.Y.
I have many thoughts running through my minds. But i just cant get it written out or expressed. What the hell wrong is with me.
Many unsaid thoughts
China Doll
Monday, October 03, 2005
Current song on playlist is Clap Back - Ja Rule.
One of the best hiphop song I would say. This song never fails to make me groove with it. No matter how many times I listened to it, I won't get bored of it. The amazing power of hiphop/rap/R&B.
Alright. I seriously love taking bus number 15 to work. 'Cause on the Ubi - Eunos stretch of road, I get to see lots of high performance cars such as subaru, evo, tuscani and many more. The most common would be subaru. As I was on the bus today, i saw this fantastic looking car 'float' pass. Guess what? ITS 350Z!!!!!!!!!!!!! NISSAN FAIRLADY 350ZZZZZ! OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!!! I. WAS. STUN. Speechless. You guys should know how excited I was. -Zip-
After work, which was rather boring, make my way down to Marina Bay to meet up with my brothers and mother for steamboat. For the first time, I hear no nagging. 3 cheers please!
Why do guys love to lie so much? Does it make them really happy to say: "Today I walked pass your shop and saw you." With that very serious tone. Not the first time from the same guy. There are also many others who did the same thing. I was really pissed when they say: "Ok. Pian ni de la!" I know it sounds petty of me to be angry over such trivial matter. Once as a joke, its ok but don't they know that by doing it so often it makes me loses the trust for them everso readily? In the end, I will be accused of being unable to trust. Trust is somethings that weighs so heavily on my heart. So, please. I can be very NAIVE at times.
Lets disgress abit. EEKK! I SAW KAICHONG'S NEW PHOTO!!! K la. One of his side view pic i like very much. Still that what-i-though-to-be manly look of his. HEHE.
Okaez. Changed my blogskin too. MORBID! I LIKE! You guys are given the choices to tag either my tagboard or leave a comment. Actually I think have either one of them would be enough. But, since it's there, I'll just leave it there. But I hope the comments will be regarding the particular entry that you guys wanna make a comment in. Ho seh.
Entries are getting very dry without pictures. So... TA DAH!
Irene and me! She's a part timer at Ebase Century Square. My colleague. Also my schoolmate. 'Cause she's from TP too!