China Doll
Monday, February 28, 2005
here's my result for O Level:
English - B3
History - B3
Combine Humanities - A2
Mathematics - A2
Science - A1
POA - A2
Higher Chinese - B3
Chinese - A2
Happy. almost wanted to cry out. cos tt stupid Mr Said told me "try harder". den i saw my name in da distinction club thingy. happy till siao. den take result, Said wanted to shake my hand. den i dun wan. cos he suan me. actually is i dunnoe la. cos i take the paper thou not my result den i stare at the paper hold the pen want to sign. den quickly take result. den Said "eh, shake hand first la!" hahhahaha... den take result call mama, call david aw, call eric, call benny and call alot of ppl. hahaha
mama wan me go jc. den me and angel went down bugis. walk talk blah blah. den i called junior. ask him tell kc about my result. but den i also got msg him la. den he got reply wor. finally. den v happy lor. thou he keep sayin busy blah blah. den say later will sms me. hope he will lor. cos i got alot of thing to tell him. not i wanna hao lian abt my result lor. but i think he got the right to noe. afterall he pei me thru tt period.
now is only troublin over at course and stuff. tml mux run 3 poly for interview and stuff. how. ? =(
China Doll
Sunday, February 27, 2005
haiz. so many things happen. kc, transfer.
today my last day at work in bugis. as i said, im transferred to parkway. was so overwhelmed with emotions. jo , denise, jy. jasmine and xiaomin taught me alot of things. was so grateful. bought them choco and their fave mango gummy. they got me the bikini i reserved at surf and rider. was so unexpected. cried sia. very gratefulll... mUaCkz. E-BJ. In Ma Heart Always.
tml gettin result lor. really v scareed. no ppl pei me go. hai. how i wish he was dere. i pray for da best ba. totally no confidence. __ sux sux sux haiz. lotsa blunders. howww..... i can only pray tonight. *praY haRD haRd* gonna take sick leave on tuesday to do the JAE shit thing. kns. so ma fan. haiz. saded. life suck. hope tml wil be better.
China Doll
Friday, February 25, 2005
Early mornin went to cpf buildin to do the dunnoe singpass shit. lucky dun have to wait long. den ate lunch talk cock. ciggieeeee finnniiiissshhhh.=X
den went csq. transfer list out. im bein transferred to PWP/ sianed. lucky huifang my incharge. she quite nice. but have to work with cynthia for a wk den huifang will takeover. called xiaomin. haiz. and jo too. cant bear to leave them. booohooo.
sms-ed junior. last night. he replied in da mornin. asked him. but no reply. wat the. even heaven not on my side. tot i could find out smth. but.. no... uber sad. monday get result somemore. no courage for everything.. sucha coward. am a coward.
China Doll
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
This Poem Im Postin Up Describes Exactly.
There was a time when all was right;
When the moon was full and the stars were bright.
From the day we met,
I knew for sure, that my life was set.
Not meeting you sooner than we had met,
Was one regret that i once had.
Your eyes, your face, so perfectly formed,
Just one glance could keep me warm.
You stripped my heart of all past hurts,
And filled it with your loving words.
You and me, we both didn't hide,
Our hopes and dreams, for which we fight.
But then he came, to claim your heart,
He claimed you his, right from the start.
Just like that, you walked out on me,
With tears i thought: how could this be?
Within my heart were little cries,
playing back the hurts and lies.
I fell for you; i didn't know why,
Confused...and i jus can't tell
China Doll
ahhhhhh.... haven even get pay. start spendin already. wat i mean? meanin i start reservin all da things i like!! like wwat?
1)MCP shoulder bag. original privve $49. but dere is 50%
2)A belt from Bugis Village. $18
2)Billabong bikini $60+
All add up to be $100 more or less.overspend this month. haiz. saded. ciggie raise cost. sian-ed
gd news. im gettin confirm. faster den my colleague jieying who join earlier den me. anotehr gd news my incharge Jo is now on probation as ASM. so happy for her. hahah. gonna to convert parttime liao lor.
sad news. gettin result soon. sian-ed how. haiz.
WISH LIST:
- osim ISqueeze?
- clothes clothes more clothes.
- gd results
- rest rest more rest.
- money money more money
- a gucci/dior/guess de sunglass.
- more cosmetics
- him
China Doll
Monday, February 21, 2005
am out in kbox to k songs with angel. den Jieying my sec sch gd mate came. gawd. how much i missed her!!!!!!!!!! had a great time singin my hearts out. out of tune also dun care la. lOlx.
den di siao waiter lor. -.- tts wat i normally do at ktv de ma. =X had a shot of tequila sprite. bleah. so-so la. shld have tried tequila shot. so i sang and sang and sang. den got 1 waiter wan take number. give lor. haiz.
den slack slack at home. sian-ed. life became so meaningless. nth to look forward to. used to have lotsa things to forward to. such as gettin his messages. tellin him how's my day. i know i keep dwellin on da past la. but cant help it ma. xiang hui dao guo qu. =(
in lurve with this pic. some say it is scary. but i really like it. kinda artistic.
China Doll
Sunday, February 20, 2005
i think i changed le.
forgive me, for everything that i could have done wrong. im not who i used to be anymore.
China Doll
Saturday, February 19, 2005
hm... aint a bad day. went to TP open hse with angel. quite a few course i took interest in.
afetr that went to TM and CSQ. Angel went round lookin for job. was rather bored. den met my family. had a great dinner at Pariss. a buffet. spent a total of $180+. one person around $40. papa treat. at first is say everybody pay their own de. cos hardly eat so gd de ma. den in the end papa say treat lor. den he tell me and my elder bro hp bill better pay lor. -.- hahaa.. so long nv eat out as one family le. cherish da time. lurve my family lots. *MuaCkz*
-Zhi Yao Ni Hao Jiu Hao-
China Doll
alast, im feelin alot better. thanx to peeps. who are always forever dere for me. i jux cant make it w/o all of ya.
special thanx to ANGELINA TAN KAH YING. The girl who seen me cry laugh smile and blah blah. forever dere for me when i needed comfort. no doubt, she's my bestest pal. girl i love u man! my live wouldnt be complete w/o you.! *muaCkz*
as usual. work. work was fine. it couldnt be any better. brings me out of all those silly tots. not exactly. mebbe those tots are jux so true. lotsa work distracts me from all the unhappiness. but this doesnt always last. late night, lyin alone in da bed. hearin the crickets callin, makin which i tot to be beautiful melodies. but it simply jux make my mind run wild. recallin all that happened.
i noe its hard for him to accept wats happenin. he's 19/20 afterall? wats gonna happen next i dunch noe. i hope someone will tell me. for im really concerned abt him yet i din have the courage to do anything else to find out. but to pray hard. prayin that he will be fine.
im not sure if i can still call u dear. but u will always be ma boo. i swear.
China Doll
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Qian Yan Wan Yu Jin Zai Bu Yan Zhong
China Doll
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
SO, truth is out huh.i din mean to do that de. but at least wat i have done makes me feel better.
you said, u are stressed up fucked up from all da court thingy and u dun wish to care abt anything. jux by sayin "sorry" u think it will solve everything. but so sad. no, it doesnt solve anything. it hurts me even more. the message that i get from all this is that u nv really cared abt how i feel. all along u knew u yourself were missin in action. yet u din even bother to tell me wat exactly happened. i hope u'll be a responsible man. watever u have done wrong, bear it. it isnt the first time u got into bike accident. compared to my cousin. your case is a small fry. my cousin sold drugs. left behind his kid and wife. but now his wife ran away. jux be a responsible young man.
u broke ur promise. u once said that we were suppose to share our joys and woes together. see, wat happened now. where are all my dears, darlings and baobei.? dun you noe how much i've been missin you all this while. i kept my faith in u. i constantly tell myself that u are fine u are alright u are busy with ur army thing. but things dun turn out the way i tot they were. how i missed gettin messages from u after i end my work. how much i miss hearin your voice. i want to hear u sing. how much i miss your naggin tellin me not to eat so much maggie as it is bad for health.
you broke so much of your promises. so many unfulfilled promises. u rather answer an unknown number instead of mine when i called last night. it took me so much courage to call you. dun you noe that? i was fuckin hurt. cried a river last night. my head hurts like crazy today.
i dun noe wat u are thinkin. watever u sent to angel i'll jux believe it. take me as a naive er who is deperate for everything. WHATEVER. for now, i can only take it as u flinged me. you got me so confused so vexed so frustrated,
but still, i miss you. i love u.
China Doll
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
ahhh~ cannot find my makeup base.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHERE HAS IT GONE TO *sObz* come back to me... ex leh... T.T
neeway, changed my layout. she will be loved. one day. haha. miss him. so much.
China Doll
work as usual. v day. lotsa ger carry flowers. so many sunflowers somemore. *sIgh* still missin.
uber tired. finally a day off tml. gonna rest well.
suddenly tot of when he knew my mum slapped me. how he chided me for not tellin him. how...happy... I WAS
tata.
China Doll
Monday, February 14, 2005
its valentine day. but doesnt make much difference to me. still in new yr mood xD
neeway after work eric came down with his elephant leg to past me da vinci code. he got me a prezzie. ahahha thanx for tt.so paiseh din get u anything =X took cab home. here i am. tired...
China Doll
Sunday, February 13, 2005
aight. hahaha time for a detailed update on my New yr trip back to msia HOORAY!!!
DAY ONE:
which is new yr eve. took coach from bugis all da way to sungei besi toll. took bout 6 hrs. but i practically slept, woke up and read thru out the whole journey. geeez...
comfy!! went to ah ma hse to stay as usual. ate dinner. caught up with mua cousins and stuff. wow.. how much they had grown.. form a young toddler to a screamin child. *nOIsY* went to slp at 3am.
DAY TWO:
ahhh woke up at 1pm. famous for bein a pig at home. once i went to first floor i heard my da ge say: wah.. zhu xiao jie wake up already. *doRtz* out to make me paiseh. nvm. new yr. stay happy. as it is chu xi, we had nowhere to go. so slack at home. went over to my waipo house durin night time. finally saw my cousin;s bf. indeed, so HANDSOME! rich somemore. gd lor. my cousin to lucky. one yr plus already. wish them da best.
den went back to ah ma hse. had some vcds with me. watch finished all 3. haha turned our livin room into a huge cinema. LMAO. titbits strewn all over da place. kids wailin at da top of their voice. imagine us watchin horror show durin new yr. haha. but it was extremely bored! one of da show about zombie was really dumb. hahaa.. our first reaction once the show ended was "CHEY!!!!!!!!!" well, all of us said it in unison w/o any cue. lOlx.
den we played with firecrazkers. and look into the sky to see those rich families light those beautiful and mesmerisin firecrazkers that we cant afford. haha.. i left my jaw open. was really so captivating.
DAY THREE:
went to waipo hse early morning. den went over to my uncle hse to play his com. thats when i wrote my previous entry. aight. shant elaborate any longer. borin day it was.
DAY FOUR:
YEA!!! my cousins did the lion dancin. was splendid!!! wait till my cousin send me those pictures i took. i was the photographer for dat day u noe! hahah... den we went down to kl. sungei wang and time sq. aint that impressive. den my auntie told me if i wan any branded such as lv, burberry or CD tell her the item code number and she can get it at upto 50% discount. wowwowwor!!! din spend much. den me my mum and cousin and waigong and my fourth uncle went to eat ma la huo guo!!! hahaha not v nice la. but normal lor. really spicy leh. *dROolz* den went home as usual. slpt at dawn.
DAY FIVE:
ahhh... woke up early mornin. got ready to go back home in spore. no more fun *sIgH* i really like msia. in terms of teh different kinda feelins it gave me. so here i am now updating this entry.
Here are some picture of my cousins i have taken with my hp.
this is KONGLONG AKA BRANDON!! my da ge de child. he got v nice eyelashes! *JEalOus*
left:shenwei
right:liyee
both my cousins. shenwei is one hella violent kid.eww.
shenwei drinkin neh neh!! large eyes he got *jeaLOus aGaIN*
guees he is tired from all of da playing. leng chai eh? lOlx
liyeeee! my cousin. uber talkative. talk like nobody's business.
i asked her to act cute =X
but she is cute anyway!!! lOlx
MY FAVE!! BB AKA YAOXIANG!!!!!!!! HE IS FRIGGIN CUTE K!!!! ONE OF DA CUTEST BB I HAVE EVER SEENNNN!!
MY GOSH HE IS SO CUTE! *PINCHPINCH!!!*
kkiex. long entry. thats all. more pics to be uploaded!
China Doll
Thursday, February 10, 2005
wahhaha.. guess where i am? in msia!! alone in a big bungalow. my uncle's house. weee.. os happy he got computer lemme use so i tot of updatin my blog...
new yr's been gd so far. jux that my mum and bro did something that piss me off. but argh! nvm. it's new yr. shld forgive and foget. if not all my aunties and uncles tot me to be a petty young xiao jie. kns. simi lan xiao jie. maid jiu you. ask me do this do that. kns. nvm WO REN!!!! ITS NEW YEAR! DONG DONG QIANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sian. 6th wk. time to let go. be gone. always. ni you he ceng xiang xiang ni shuo guo de shi yan. ni you he ceng xiang xiang wo ai wo xiang wo hen wo yuan wo nian.
lalalal.. late rmy uncle comin to pick me up le! the weather in msia so warm. even the tap water nv heat is warm de.. argh!damn hot lor. tml goin shoppin!!!!!! weeee! Buy buy bUY! k la. when i get back to singapore i update more. lotsa cutie pics to be uploaded!! hahaa.. oh ya my phone has auto roaming.. geee... mebbe later at night i might call angelina. hahahahha ..... await my call ger!!!!!
China Doll
Monday, February 07, 2005
aight. today aint a bad day. thou i still cant tally cash. but heck ah. =X
xiaomin din work today but she came down to bugis. jux right, it was my break so we had lunch together. hoho. she's my fave person at work u noe. cos we tend to crap LOTS together. so we decided to take neoprints! yeayea!
of cos. the most initial pose would be smilin sweetly sitting nicely.
den we decided to do smth similar again. see our sexy pose? =X
den we got so excited and crazier. did my fave da tou! =X close up pic. hohoho
well, we went bonker and we did this pose *wOoOoOohOoOooo* MY FAVE OF ALL PIC TAKEN!!!! hurhur.
*LMAO* how fun is tt. weeeeee~~~~~~~~~~
China Doll
Saturday, February 05, 2005
weee.. today went SP check out some courses! spotted quite anumber of yoyo de. =x hmmm... the music and audio technolody thingy interest me. gonna put it as one of my choices.
went queensway shoppin center. wah.. even more yoyo! no need go orchard liao. go there can already. LOL! bought lotsa earrings. geee.. cheap cheap cheap! =X went down to bugis bought nail polish and took neoprints.. geeee...
sweet smilezzzz.. =X
sexy pose eh?
black nails! =X
2 flowers MUAHAHHAHAHA =X
big head!
geee... cute ma.. erpz.
cheeeekkkyyyyy..
well... im alright now. =D mood swing not as bad. hmm congratz myself *sMilez*
anyway, i jux received a msg from a frenster fren. not exactly fren. he told me that someone is usin my pic. booo.. this is wat i wrote to that person:
wah.. hi bitch *wave* oops. i think "bitch" this word is too beautiful to describe u. mebbe a slut will do better? u did smth that really pisses me off. how could u jux put my pic up and jux say it is u? do i have a twin sister? dun think so. confirm with my mum already. mebbe u dun have a face? or it is jux simply too ugly to be put up? aww... *saYaNgz* i feel so sad for u. i actually din wat to say so much. but wat a rude thing to do. i will gladly lend u my pic if u send me a message saying that u dun have face to put up as frenster pic.
now jux fuck off. and stop usin other ppl's pic. u are jux a parasite irritatin the society. __
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=16131633<--- this is that person link.
China Doll
Friday, February 04, 2005
i feel so... empty.. so imcomplete... its not like the past me.
In da past, whenever i feel ever so low so stressed, im able to sort out my thinkin rationally pickin myself up once again. Livin life i shld be living.
However, this time, i felt like a bum. why am such a failure. not doin things up tot standard. be it work or housework. mistakes here and dere. obviously it pisses everyone. and it piss ME MYSELF OFF.
This world definitely suck. ok. i can tell u. in da past, this hardly crosses my mind. I used to feel that the world is full of love trust faith. but somehow, many incidents, proved me wrong. this world is so goddamn realistic, so lowdown, so fake. jux started out in the society. cant accept all this. brainwashin myself. I WANNA BE A RICH TAITAI. haha.. and duh... its a DREAM! not all dreams will come true. trust me. this never will. i noe it myself.
how i wish, this damn world can be so innocent. yea. as i said. I WISHED.
i feel so frustrated. some ppl jux cannot put trust in me. yea i admit. i like doine xtreme things. but so wat. i dun harm myself. hmm.. mebbe i do? but i believe in myself doings things gd and puttin it in da right place. different ways of completin task for everyone. stop naggin at me. it sucks to core.
stop treatin as if im still alittle young girl. i noe how realistic this world. no more childish tots for me. YES I NOE! i noe how to think. i got brains yea? althou it is slow sometimes. SO WAT! im 17. yes. still along way to go. jux lemme do things on my own. dun disturb me or interfere. i might smack ur assss.
how much i hope everything in da world can jux go accordin to wat i want. it never will.
but body aint takin all these gd. its breakin down. i can feel it. serious flu with me now. feelin my body gets weaker and weaker. no mood for everything. can i jux go into deep slp? yes pls.
lemme be on my own.
China Doll
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
-Summary-
Work: suck. cant be any worst. forgot to give customer change count wrong money. cash doesnt tally. got irritated. pissed. but rachel, my relief IC is pretty. admire her.
Life: fuck. why does everything jux go wrong. @#$%^& ARGH! I NEED A BREAK #$%^^&*