China Doll
Friday, December 30, 2005
It's almost the end of the year and reflections are to be done.
Year 2005 is sucha bumpy year for me. Quite tormenting in fact. Emotionally and physically. I was brought into year 2005 thinkin that I had almost everything. Love, family, friends, work, good results etc etc. But things didn't really work out and my life took a 180 degree turn. My life became so negative.
This year, he started IGNORING me. Fine. I shan't harp on this topic anymore.
Received my O level in this fateful year. Not too bad. Was quite happy. 5As. 1 A1 and the rest A2. Remainin 3 is a B3. Got myself a place in Communication and Media Management in TP. Not too bad. Didn't make it to JC. LUCKY I didn't.
Poly started. Knew my polymates. Fantastic people I like! Get a feel of poly life. Had quite a difficult time adapting But oh well, so used to it already.
Stayed in Ebase continued to work part time. Am transfered to Parkway. Of course there were conflicts here and there. Im glad that these conflicts actually happened. Am I a sadist or what? No. But this kinda thing make us learn. I've learn alot too.
My parents went through a divorce. I was badly affected. Moreover, at that time Im still struggling with work and school. Emotional breakdown.
Got my first official boyfriend Mr. Christ Toh Kang Yee. But didn't really last long. However it was a very sweet memory for me. He may not be the best guy I've ever met but I am thankful that he came and brought colours into my life when I feel like im smack right in a abyss.
Spent much of my time with my polymates and friends. To be honest, without them I don't know what will become of me. Especially Angelina Tan ( yesyes.. readers I know you guys are bored from me thanking that girl but... no matter how much words can express my thoughts ba). She's the one who bring me through EVERYTHING. And I mean everything. The christmas gift that she gave me was fuckingtastic. I still love you. And Im loving you for the 6th year. hahah..
Oh yes. year 2005 I had my first clubbing experience. Aint a virgin anymore! Tml will be my second time. As promised with my girl, bu zui bu gui (no drunk no home literally)
I have gain and lose throughout 2005. Small little things happened that actually had big impact on me. Too much to be mentioned. I learned to become a much much more stronger. I learned different ways to handle and reacting to different situations. The journey is still long. In fact I feel that my future is rather bleak. Sigh. What to do. I'll just welcome the new year anyway.
New year resolutions will be done over the next few day. But I don't I'll be bloggin cos too tired. Await!!
China Doll
Last night was hell. I couldnt sleep at all. Since I had nothing to do, I started writing my diary. Went into a crying fit. Cant stop myself. Just kept on writing and crying. I cant pull myself out of this misery.
Am rather bewildered. How come Junior don't know my number. By right he should know. How come he asked me "who is this?" Am really shock. I begin making assumptions. What else I can do? Let it go? I know cant.
I was being scolded by Xiaoling (tua nehneh =X) "can you stop living in the shadows of your ex and him!" Lao niang lan lan jitao bo chap her and walk away.
Still thinkin whether I should pierce my conch. I think I will make myself seh on Saturday at Liquid.
China Doll
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Went out with my girl. Mood was down down down. Played pool and slack. The usual. But my mood gets lifted. Which is good.
Went to town, met up with ebase girls. Should be at Balcony. But no seats. So make do with NYDC. It was fun. Its rare to see so many of my colleagues at one go. I do hope we get this kinda gathering often. Everyone got their prezzie. Only me and lena. Cos the person who's suppose to give us prezzie din come. zZz. well, at least we enjoyed photowhoring. Photos all with sally. heh.
Now i have this funny feelin in my tummy. I guess eat too much. Feel like pukin. I'll be gone.
I still cant help but think of you...
China Doll
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
After work, Eric came and fetch me. It's been a long long time since i sat on a bike. So long i forgot how to strap my helmet and which leg support to step on.
As his bike is a single sitter, I sat on the tank part,I could have been thrown off and died. That explains why my body was rather tense. But relaxed after a while. He sped thru ECP and went to the place where we could see aeroplanes. It was a nice feeling.The serenity around us. The coldness of the wind. I let my mind wander off and I think of him. He loves bike. Im not sure whether he still like bike. It is sucha sad thing. he use to tell me that he buang when tryin out stunts. It really make my heart hurts. But so sad, the guy who is riding isnt the guy whom i wish for.
The excitement and thrill seems to perk me up. If im not wrong eric did speed up till 120 or 130km/h ba. Den his bike started making funny whistling sound. -.-
Went into Changi Village Eric ate and I din. Talked and joked. He sent me home. I kept knocking his helmet cos he was tryin some small stunts and I dun wish to be dead so young. Be a safe rider. =)
I cant help but keep thinkin of you...
China Doll
Monday, December 26, 2005
It was xmas when I was happily clubbing and feelin alil' tipsy. I don't know why I messaged you "lao niang going to seh already."
It was xmas when you said nothing to make me feel better.
It was xmas when I knew that your girlfriend went to Malaysia and you said you miss her alot.
It was xmas when I din actually realised that you were attached until much later.
It was xmas when my friends were happily eating Bak Kut Teh in the middle of the night and I am still feeling tipsy and thinkin that you should not be attached.
I am badly agonised. No. I did not cry. Till the next day. But when I got home tt night I cant sleep at all. All this while, I hold on strongly to the belief that you did not ignore me because you got yourself another girl. I was convinced that wasnt the case. I was so wrong to trust you so much. The truth is all out. You are happily attached. And you did not tell me ANYTHING!
What more, I sat facing Singapore River tha night b4, recounting all the things we have said and done to each other. Heart wrenching.
I cant bear to read the messages the second time. I am too afraid to face the truth. It's too much for me to take.
Till the next afternoon, I was in the bus, I read it and I cried.
Today, I was on my bed, thinking about the past. I cried.
I am just too stupid too naive too wrong about YOU.
I don't know whether it is true or not. But I think, I will still get on with life and stop thinkin about you. which i know will be extremely difficult. It's almost one year since u left. I tot i could do it. But I din succeed.
You. Broke my heart. Very badly.
China Doll
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Lao niang de first time, gone on xmas. *shy* LAO NIANG FIRST TIME GO CLUBBING WOR! AT LIQUID ROOM!! Wilson called me a virgin. -.-
Anyway, worked half morning (till 3pm). make my way down to angel's house to prepare. and of cos... take pictures!
Zi lian.
After that we make our way down to town. Plaza Singapura's our first stop. Wnated to eat but everywhere also long q. Ended up sitting on the side walk drink soya milk and eating fries at Mac. Met up with Jason too. Hehe.
After slackin at Mac, went decide to go down Gallery Hotel. But we were far too early. Dont ma. Noob.=X sua ku. =X So we went to Singapore River and talked. Enjoyed the breeze, had a great talk with my girl.
Funny hor the pic. =X
Around 10.15pm go back to LiquidRoom. Got peopl waiting already. lalala... Q-ed up went in. Dance floor damn emoty. Had vodka lime. nice. Saw a number of familiar face. Den Laura and friends came. Hehe. Jason suppose to come la. But dunno why cannot. Bouncer started checkin IC.
Dance floor became very crowded. Angel, Elfanie, Kawen and me started dancing. Out of sudden, we were surrounded by guys. Damn uncomfortable. So packed and they come bua us. Haha. As you noe me and angel, when we kanna 'attack' by people we like to act lesbian. So we started dirty dancing with each other, together with Elfanie and Kawen. AND THE GUYS STARTED CHEERING LA! -.- Grr...
15 minutes later started to sweat already. -.- Elfanie majiam bathing. KaWen dance not bad eh. siao siao. =X
Was tired. Went to order drinks. Sex on the Beach and Graveyard. After drinknin Graveyard back to dance. 2nd round. kanna surround by the same group of guys. den very tired. went out to rest. Started puking, I know very unglam la. puke. but i hide one corner ma. and that corner is just in front of the door. zZz. puked 1st time. feel better. Angel seh until cannot walk properly. Have to help her down the stairs cos i scared she roll down teh stairs. at least i walk still v steady hor. but not drunk la. just giddy. damn that graveyard. Sex on the beach damn nice can!
Went back, danced 3rd round. Lao niang very high liao. Cos i noe i dance until v hiong. This time got one guy behind me. Elfanie say he keep bua me. I also noe. Den play abit with him. Danced with him with my back facin him. HEHE! den i keep losin my balance. and Oh! I had fun elbowing people. HEHE.
Funny thing is that, whenever i drink alcohol, i will go to the toilet very pften. but that night no wor.. maybe i sweat it all out already. LOL
Went out to rest puke again. Angel jitao really seh. HENG I PUKE LOR I FEEL ALOT BETTER (yes yes i noe it is still unglam of me. but just shut up la. =X LOL!) went to eat bak kut teh. despite having fun that night. I came to know some devastating truth. will talk about it next time. Angel's dad came to fetch us. went home din bother to bathe. ust removed my make up and slp!
And today! i woke up. feeling not tired at all. Funny!
Sorry to all my darlings who wished me merry xmas that night. was too high to reply. Lolz.
R&B/Hiphop lagi bestttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
China Doll
Saturday, December 24, 2005
When I bring food that you made to work, I will definitely 'force' my colleague to have some and ask for their opinions. Most of the time they said its nice. My first reaction will be " My mama cook one leh!!!" I am proud of that.
When I bump into my friends on the street and I am with my mama, I will proudly introduce them. After that I will ask, how old my mama look. They will say "your mama quite young eh?"
Happy Birthday MAMA!!!!!
P/S: its on the 23rd. But as you guys know, my posts are always one day late. hehe.
P/S: I forgot the actual age of my mama. But it doesnt really matter. Cos to me, my mama is always the anggy 40! *oops*
Mood was triple down. first was the misunderstandin of my mama de birthday. second, work suck. third, i was really tired.
Xmas!!!
China Doll
Friday, December 23, 2005
Ahhh.... The whole day was quite enjoyable. Went to worked. Talked lotsa rubbish with the new fulltimer xiaoling2 and sally.
Rush down to town to meet up with shuhui(omfg. it's been around 6 months since i last saw her?), Xiaomin (mengmeng!!) and JOJO! The ktv gathering was last minute cancelled. All of us were broke and due to some unforeseen circumstances. So... yeps... cancelled.
Walked around with shuhui and xiaomin. Jo went off to meet her friends. It was so fun!! Shuhui never fails to amuse me with her actions, words and her slow reation. Damn cute cannn! Lotsa crapping. aww.. those were our days back in BJ too.
Shuhui went off to meet her friends and left both of us. So xiaomin and i went to walk around town. Crashed wisma. Havin midnight sales. Visited Denise aka ah neh!!! haha.. she standing in front of Ebase and "lelong". So xiaomin and me very bored, decided to di siao. We stand at the door, back face the passageway and started "ten dollar ten dollar lai kan yi xia!* Den karin even more lame. "Ten dollar *clap clap clap* ten dollar *clap clap clap*" there were so many customers around and we just made a fool out of ourselves. haha. Nehneh is so cute. she take dunnoe what furry thing put around her head. like monkey like tt!!! LOL. she said she was very bored. HAHHA lmao.
My mood is slightly lifted. Am feeling way better than the last few days. Taking things in my stride already.
And I have set my mind.
China Doll
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Mind = Blank
Heart = Mess
Me Lucky or Suay? Vexed. Why like that?
Hai. I really dun want anymore conflicts with anybody. Its tiring. Especially with my mum. Mentally drained.
My life is so miserable. T.T
China Doll
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
I was on the bus the other day going to school. I kapok alot of the Memoirs of the Geisha Hangers.
Nice horr....
Limbu now is knnccbnnb dulan can. My mother is FOREVER going back on words. I FUCKING DULANZ K. WHAT IS THE FUCKIN PROBLEM WITH HER. EVERYTIME SAY OKOK DEN NOW COME TELL ME THIS SHIT LANJIAO WEI.
My blood vessels gonna explode already.
China Doll
Sunday, December 18, 2005
What does your handwriting say about YOU?
The results of your analysis say:
You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.
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Hmm.. everything quite true cept for the interest in design, intelligent.
China Doll
Mug mug mug and mug.
Chocolate by Kylie Minouge on my playlist.
Usher and Alicia Keyes My Boo in my head.
China Doll
Friday, December 16, 2005
Was walking home from the bus stop. Saw that the moon was extremely bright. So bright, that the clouds around it are lit as well.
The stars shone like diamonds too. So sparkling that it shone through those cotton candy like clouds. How often do you see stars shining through clouds?
It was a tiring day for me. Because I woke up 4.45am to study till 6am. From 6am slept till 6.45am. Less than 4 hours of sleep. Felt very sick in my stomach. Feel as if Im gonna faint anytime. It's a terrible feeling. I am studying hard. Because I don't want anymore F. Neither do I want an A. I just want to be a straight B student. Im happy enough. I want my GPA to be at plus minus 3. That will do. Im easily contented. So, Santa, are you going to do me this favour? *Smile*
China Doll
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
So what if your english is better. So what if you have a boyfriend. So what if u got piercings on your face. So what if you can suntan in your house's balcony. This doesnt give u the right to call us BIMBOS! What the hell is wrong with you. You said it right into my face and brush it off by saying "just joking" and gave me a pat on my shoulder?
Your tone just pissed me so off. I feel like smacking you right in your face and hope your piercing tears and bleed nonstop. I am so goddamn offended.
I am very worried. Over what? Don't know. The money issue is stressing me again. Sigh. Photography is really an expensive.
Traumatized evening I spent. Only Angel knows.
My ex is ignoring mee!!!!! HMPH
Oh ya! And KC messaged me!!! *giggle* It's been a long time. You don't talk like how you use to talk to me. Everything turned a 180 degree. Its all on the other side. So far, that I know I will never reach you. But somewhere in my heart, there will be this very special place, just for you. Only you.
China Doll
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Okae. Xmas is either LiquidRoom or One. HOORAY! But I want to go One. hmm. Shall see how. I have already thought of ideas to do the xmas card and prezzie for her.
Photography is making me broke.
Just finish reading the photography notes.
Before that was Journalism. Later's gonna be MMPRIN.
Got a B for my first set of journals. Am proud of my cover letter. Straight Bs for journals since last semester. Zzz
350Z. Freaking nice isnt it.This world is so full of hypocrites. They say all the nice things to you right in your face. The next thing, they say even nicer things to other people. They don't mean what they say. Its hard to trust nowadays.
After term test will be fun fun and more fun
22nd Dec - Ex Bugis Ebase team ktv session.
24th Dec - Xmas celebrations. Most likely going to stay over at angel's house. HIAKHIAKHIAK
29th Dec - Ebase east territory outing.
BUT! There is still projects to be done. Photography group project, Business report, another set of journals etc etc. TSK!
China Doll
Monday, December 12, 2005
Fluctuating moodswings. Not a good sign. When term test is next week. I just realize it. OH MY FUCKING GOD AND I HAVEN EVEN START STUDYINNNNNNN..
As I said, life hasnt been good to me. Listenin to soppy canto songs. Am lookin forward to xmas. lala~ Green light given to me!!! HOORAYYYY!! I already know what to get for my girl HIAKHIAK!
I SHALL START STUDYING AT 11.30pm!!
Any idea what to present for my persuasive communication.?? Ideas badly needed. Please contribute. Anything will do.
China Doll
Bwahbwahbwah. All my fake nails came off.
Sucks. Someone stole my black and purple lace tube when my mum hung it out to dry on the corrider. Which fucking pervert would want to wear my tubes. Fuck that person. I hope his/her skin gets rashes.
When I went to work today, I wanted to wear my white netted pumps that I bought specially for work. BUT! What the fucking hell. There are LARGE splash of coffee stains on it. I AM SO FUCKINGODAMNPISS. I went to check the message book. No. No message or note to inform. So angry I was, no.. wrong, so angry I AM, I went round to ask my colleagues. A new staff, Xiaoling 2, told me my incharge spilled Jo's coffee.
IF A NOTE OR MESSAGE WAS LEFT TO INFORM ME, I COULD HAVE LET IT GO. DENISE FROM S&K TOLD ME MEBBE SHE DUNNOE THAT SHE SPILLED? WHO WOULD BE SO FUCKING BLIND TO NOT KNOW SHE HAS SPILLED DRINKS ON THE FLOOR? THERE WERE EVEN STAINS ON THE VACUUM CLEANER. WE WERE ALL SO FUCKINGLY DISGUSTIING. THAT IS SOOOOOOO IRRESPONSIBLEEEEEE.... *SCREAM*
SOOOOOO, this means I have to spend money to get myself another pumps again? YUAN WANG QIAN !!!!!!!!!! Sigh.
Anyway, I left a damn sarcastic note in the message book.
Life hasnt been good for me.
What the hell am I doing now. Studying, working, slacking.
Studying. Yes I am studying now. In fact, I've put in more effort in my studies. But outcome? Just wait for term test to see. I think I will have it all screwed up. I feel very inconfident of all my work.
Work. AHHH problems here and there. I miss Bugis. Looking forward to the 22nd gathering.
Slacking. Ooo my gf!! I think I have spent too much slacking this semester.
Feeling very emo. ahhh dun disturb..
AM I HAPPPPYYYYY???????????
China Doll
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Before I get started on my Media and Management Principles, I WANNA COMPLAIN. My girl is working. So I dont want to disturb her.
I went online jus now and checked my friendster. Oh! I got new frend request. So i clicked, "Lianster Roxxx" This erm "group" added me. I was bewildered. Why would a ah lian group add me a guai kia???? So i went to check out their profile.
"if you think u are an ah lian pleas add us at XXX@hotmail.com"
Lao niang read liao jitao reject. KNN. Me AH LIAN MEH? WHERE GOT AH LIAN STAY AT HOME ON SATURDAY TO DO HOMEWORK DE? Jitao angry lor. NBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!
Seven morning eight morning must make me angry. (it's 1.45pm now. I just woke up not long ago.)
TMDDDD!!!
China Doll
Friday, December 09, 2005
Suddenly feeling very emo. Im not tired. I did not take a good rest ever since I reached home. I've been working non-stop.
I was speechless when I found out that my psychology mate, Tricia knows my ex. =O!!!!!!!!! They were from the same secondary. Why everyone around me is so connected? I found out something even more shocking. Tricia told me that he had a tattoo somewhere near his stomach. The tattoo was the name of his ex-gf. I came to relaize why he was SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO reluctant to show me his tattoo. The ex-gf was the best fren of a girl whom I knew and was from my primary school. LAO NIANG SPPECHLESS!!!
I wonder why he didn't come clean with me about it. What's about it he cannot tell me. Sigh. So disappointed. Maybe it is the right thing that he broke with me. At least, I have something lesser to care about.
Come to talk about relationship, I find being single is really a good thing. No worries that your bf will be jealous. No worries that your bf might with some other girls outside. No worries that your bf will quarrel with you over friends and games. I cant deny the fact that sometimes I REALLY yearn for someone to hug me, console me, sayang me when Im down. I have guy friends out there who does all that. But there is no chemistry at all. And I definitely hate it when someone whom I have no feelings towards to, treats me with all the love, care and concern. I will feel fucking guilty if i don't reciprocate his love. However, it doesn't make sense at all if i treat him good just to make myself less guilty? Thats an selfish act.
Hence, sometimes I would rather keep all unhappiness to myself. I do not wish to be a burden to anyone else. It sounds so wrong (to me). And I feel uncomfortable. The only people I would turn to is my besties. They are much much much more reliable and trustable (?).
How much can you trust ur partner. I am someone who gives a damn about trust in a relationship. It may seems to be a bochap attitude, but Im tryin to give u all my trust i can. I dont expect u to BETRAY my trust. I wll freak out if you ever did. Soon, u will see me strapped to the bed in IMH. hows that?
Ahhhh.. I cant sleep. =( Gonna re-read Shanghai Baby by Wei Hui.
China Doll
I just found out that my psychology mate knows my ex. =O!
I had my fake nails done.
Say its nice pls. It's fake nee way. =D
I was talking to my senior on msn just now. CHEENAPOK! haha. Nice senior he is. I told him that my class is full of angmohs, which I feel was rather stressful. Cos I never write/type/speak proper English. I told him that I got into this course by luck. And that's really my thoughts. I never expect myself to end up in CMM. Now, Im being stressed out of da shit. I wonder how am I ever gonna get good grades like how I use to. I don't think I will ever do that.
Nevertheless, I still love my course. I love what I am doing despite lousy grades. I love my classmates. *Smiles*
Deadlines are looming. Frantic. Met my girl at the reservoir this afternoon. Her presence always calm me down. Not much words were said. Just the usual crapping. Its good enough. *Smile*
I will try to start studying for my term test thou it is only 2 subject. I hope I won't fail journalism again. Feeling quite demoralised. I'll be good and attend journalism lecture tml. *Smile*
Im tryin hard to s.m.i.l.e.
China Doll
Thursday, December 08, 2005
Currently feelin very stoned and freaked out. So i donnoe what i will be typing and i will just type anyway.
Cant find the photoshop cd that weibin lent it to me. So am freaked out. Shall spend my time tml to find. Im sure it is around me hse. Just that it went into disappearing act.
Mentally and physicalled drained.
Having 8am lesson tml.
So bye for now.
China Doll
Sunday, December 04, 2005
Ok. Finally, Im in the mood to blog. And today's topic: Bel's Birthday Chalet!!!
First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSABEL "ONG"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On saturday morning, went to school for National Education. ZzZ. You get what I mean now? Total waste of time.
Then, me and angel went home changed went down to Pavilion for a game of pool. Saw Rena. My junior. So, lalalalalalalla~ me, the white ball queen, bu fei lang de xu ming ah! haha.
About an hour later, proceeded to Bugis. I BOUGHT A BAG AND A GREEN TOP!! I LOVE THE BAG MANY MANY MANY MANY!!!
See the black/white/grey bag Im holding? NICE NICE!! Cost me $29.90. I feel that it is overpriced. oh well. Bought a naval stud for Bel. I knew she wanted. Hope she likes the stud we bought her. Me myself also abit gian gian wanna buy for myself nia. Cannot! must control. Broke.
Around 7pm plus went down to the chalet. Hmm... had buffet. Not too bad la.. Quite a number of Ebasian there. Namely: Cara, ah jo, ah neh, xiao min, lindy, huifang, chamebelle, lifang, jenny.
Xiaomin' bf, Jo husband, lifang's baby, Baleno's Daniel attended too. Since it's almost all girls, it gossiping, bitching and photowhoring time!
Ah Meng and Ah boon!! My all time fave at work!! *smoochies!*
We love doin this =D
Huifang and me! Ex ebase parkway incharge!!!! Despite all the misunderstanding, u still care about me!! I miss you!!
She-mo-bel and me. Chamebelle. Haha. She become so pretty ler!!
Birthday Queen and me! She's da queen! haha
Lindy and me.The weather was warm. our make up melted. That explains my look. eyebag and all. haha. had Chivas with Green tea. And I had fallen in love with chivas. Found out something surprising too! haha.
Work today was fine. Last minuted was called to bugis to relief. Jo and lena was great despite bad sales. haha...
...
So bored. =(
China Doll
Friday, December 02, 2005
Am currently having a rubbish-talking session on msn with Rovin. He lives just next block and 2 floor higher from me. But we have never seen each other before. Talk about you yuan wu fen. Haha.
Rovin: Indonesia de cig not gd. maid also not gd. Philippines de cig good, maid also good.
Ah! Tommorow I'll be attending National Education. At 9! T.T Cant sleep in. Sigh.
Xmas Xmas Xmas! What am I gonna doooo? The first thing that really came to my mind was clubbing. But all clubs are definitely be jampacked and there will be no place to dance. Like what the hell. No r&b den make do with techno lor. =X I don't mind de. Hehe. Cos if im high on alcohol and loud music, i will definitely start boogie-ing. Whoopie.!!
Had mood swings in the afternoon. Was quite bad. Started shouting at my bro for no reason. I think he got a bad shock. Am sorry about it.
Found this picture in friendster. Thought it was quite cool/freaky/awesome/disgusting or whatever u think. So I post it up. This guy is some japanese visual rocker or smth. Don't know la. Never interested in Jpop. I know Angelina reaction: He no money buy paper isit?
RIGHT GIRLLL?!??! hahaha... I know you too well.
China Doll
Wasn't intending to blog. But I'll do it still do it anyway cos Im waiting for my notes to be printed.
Ahhh... Feeling goddamn tired. Tml I shall do my recruit advertisement, touch up my 1st and 2nd journal. Outline my 3rd journal. Summarise MMPrin. SLP SLP SLP AND MORE SLP! Maybe, If I don't feel lazy, I might read thru my psychology notes and textbook.
Am suppose to go tannin with my girls! But, none of them can make it. So, no more Sentosa for me. It's a good thing. I can finish up my work.
Saturday will be a day outfor me. Might be dying and highlightin my hair. Since my hair is layerd, the inside will be blonde, mebbe ash brown. Outside coloured blue-black and red streaks. Comments anyone? After doing hair, shop around in Bugis with my girl. Gotta get Bel's bdae prezzie. And at night attend Bel's chalet. Hehe. I foresee fun, bitching and fatigue. Sigh.
What the hell. First Anthony now Brandon. Crazy world this is. *shake head*
China Doll
Thursday, December 01, 2005
I am very sad. Cos I got 5/10 for my 3rd psychology quiz. damn sad. Haiz. Work hard! I have yet to do my recruitment ad. Due date is Sunday.
I don't know what the hell wrong is with my mum. I have a father and I acknowledge him depsite all the things he had done. We are merely going to have a meal and he don't even know whether he can make it or not. And it is surely be less den 1 hr cos I'll be working! Like wtf? So u wan me to disown my father? (where got daughter disown father de. whatever.) Like wtf. SO pissed! She even commanded me not to go and meet him. wth.
Hmph! Lucky today I met my girl walked around and had a few round of pool at pavilion. LIKE FINALLY! I miss her la. Never fails to brighten up my day.
Omg. Things are gettin out of hand. Tsk!
Ah! why am i feelin the way i am feelin now. i feel so depressed. why why why! PMS period is over! but why!?! was it because what happened? because i hear someone voice and talks with that slang and i suddenly get so demoralised cos my english not good... whyyy..... because i get 5/10 for psychology quiz? i feel so dumb!! why why why. why things have to be like tt!!! V vex!!!!!!!
Theres more to come.