China Doll
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Here's a shout out to all the teachers who had taught me before regardless of primary or secondary school.
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!!!!
Went back to my secondary school. While waiting for my frenz, i saw darren and the usual bball peeps. Sit down and talk cock. Cos i was all alone. haha. watched the concert. Took lotsa pictures. How much i missed my secondary school. The building is going to be demolished. Memories. It will be tuck safely inside my heart.
Thanks to all the teachers who had taken great care of me throughout my learning journey.
Mr. Said, Mrs Chua Yoke Ng, Mrs Chua Meeli, Ms Ho PP,Ms Lai, Mdm Yue, Mdm Zhen, Mrs Lynn Tan and many many not listed.
The concert starts. Btw, the guy head on the left is Joshua Ang the actor.
me, yingxiu and sihui. Me and ying xiu were classmates while Sihui's just next class! ^^
felicia (my best classmates during sec 3 and 4), emily (my junior) and mE!
me and xiu! again!
huixin and angel. my schoolmates =D
concert end.
This year's concert aint as good as last year. Many bands playing. Sound system sucks.
After the concert ended, i rush to find Cheryl and BAOOOOO! I MISS THEM SO MUCHHH!!!! Of course, we took pictures. heh.
I am SO SO SO SO HAPPY THAT I SEE THEM!!!! That explains that retard look on my face. gee.
I love them so much! They are my sunshine babes! Still remember the time we spent shopping and tanning at the beach? I love u bebs. MuaCkz
me and peter. He's my classmate too. Damn tall and skinny. Practically a bamboo.! he cant stay still. Blur pic results!
4e4 people.!! haha... the malay people from my class except for the one with the twist. I dunnoe who is he. haha Me, cailing and charmine.
4e4 girls. The closest group in class.!
david! he got v cute small eyes! he's my ex crush. and i seriously had a HUGE crush on him back then.
group pic.
char and me. We study higher chinese together. and we really slack through those days.
shawn! He used to be a model. Good build and look! ^^
mdm yue. My social studies and geography teacher. She's definitely a teacher with attitude.
"Come! lemme see whether the picture nice or not" muahaha. we are such vain pot.
mr. said. He's my home teacher from sec 3 to 4. sec 1 too. heh. he can teach math very well. serious.
mdm zhen. My chinese language teacher when i was in sec 1. she is damn sociable and funny la!
min fei and frenz.
Front: Mdm Zhen
Middle (L to R): Colin, Nelson, fei, and chao yan
Back (L to R): err... i forgot the name of the guy in red. Jiawei.
After school, me and angel is suppose to study. Went to starbuck ate Peachy Danish , warm choco cake and RHUMBA!!!! WHOA HEAVENNNNN!!!!!!
Later eugan and xing yi came to meet us. Went to Yozhinoya cos Eugan wanted to eat. We then proceed to Pastamania cos Xing yi wants to eat.
eugan. V tall guy too.
me and eugan! ignore my spastic face pls.
When we were at pastamani, we saw jin hao. Da shuai ge nehhh! even girls from other table also keep looking at him. Loook beloww!
jin hao! wahhh!
There were many many pictures taken. haha. too much to be posted. ^^
Aight. I really really need to study. grrrrr
China Doll
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Oh! It actually rained just now. I just realised that. Just woke up from sleep. Today i think gonna study till late. Around 3am ba. Sigh.
Yogurt makes my face goes ------> xD~
China Doll
Monday, August 29, 2005
Was browsing my testimonials in friendster. I realised how many people missed me nia!!! so gan dong!! Aight! Holidays are coming!!!!! Esp. #momotea ppl and my sec sch friends. awww...
#MoMoTea:
you u guys organise outing i'll sure attend this time. but no last minute pls.
Sec sch friends:
Sia laaa! having JC exams and stufff... howwwW??
China Doll
Saturday, August 27, 2005
omfg. aight. bad start. but, the same thing WHO CARES! *GIGGLE*
I shall omit the negative part of the day. hehe.
Wake up in the morning, got ready to go out with my girlllllllL!!! hehe.. went down to MSQ. Talk and crap all the way laaa! Our main aim was actually stock up my cosmetic that i have finished using. Like my lipgloss and blusher. Went to The Make Up Store. The shop I've beem aiming for so long!. It was like WHOOOOOAAAA!!!!!!! Spent about $70+ there. Got the membership card!!! The shop is actually from Sweden. Once again it was like WHOOOOOAAAA!!!!!! At first I thought i received my pay. But in the end... sigh.. i didn't Angel paid for everything today. hehe.. Tomorrow I have to transfer a huge sum of money to her account. Happy Happy bought purple eyeshadow, lipgloss and blusher.
Miss me ex alittle so bought drink from The Juice Station, wanted to ask Angel to pass to him at the lan shop. BUT! he wasn't in. so ok lor, me and angel shared the drink.
We went down to town after that. Wasn't in the mood to shop. Cos i din get my pay. But everything changed when we were in FEP. MUAHAHA. Bought a shirt from Honey and Bee. Can wear for presentation and a blazer from Osmose. NICE BLAZER LEHHH! I LIKEEE! I aim that one for quite long already lehhh!! happy happy walked around. saw many many things i took fancy of. but refrained myself. Saw my cousin too! so happy ( i think thats the only word i can think of right now. HAPPY!)
Went to the open space outside Takashimaya sit and drink. drink ICE LEMON TEA LA! -.- Was talking about the past, reflecting on ourself. We realise how much we had changed after both of us graduated. aiyo!
Walked down to PS. Walk around also den go inside Ebase talk rubbish with Ai chuan and Joseline. It's been a long time since i last saw them. heh. den me and angel met up with sky. talk a while and DENG CHUUUUUUU!
yea.. was expecting my mama scold me la. but surprisingly she din. so, who cares erpz.
Oh ya. HAPPY BIRTHDAY XING YIIIIIII!!!!!! *hUgz*
China Doll
Friday, August 26, 2005
The time now is 12.30am. In 20 minutes time, it could be our first month. sigh.
China Doll
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
I think I have lost almost everything in my life.
Aims.
Trust.
Faith.
Fun.
A Complete family.
Love from my parents.
Whether or not it is my fault.
Another red line just formed before the first one can heal.
Depression hits me.
I feel so insignificant. So small when compared to others.
I envy all my classmates.
Nice parents, good grades and everything.
I've been having sucidal thoughts lately. Ironically, i used to laugh at people who thought of it. I used to think they are stupid. Now i am the stupid one. For now, i will just stay one corner and cry.
China Doll
Monday, August 22, 2005
I love morbid pictures.
I dun care if this picture scares u or whatever.
When u are blamed for nothing, how would u feel?
When nobody appreciates you and other expect you to appreciate them.
All the time I've been the bad person. Talk about discriminating against girl and favoring boys in family.
It aint fair. And i guess i will nv be fair. I will nv have a chance to speak up for myself. My thoughts can never be expressed. Cos it is just a fuckin unfair world.
China Doll
WAH LAU EH! hmm. a bad start for my blog. bah who cares. the cost for piercing my conch is a freaking $70!!! o.O? who's gonna sponsor me? my birthday is on november! soon!! =X
anyway. conch is the inside of your ear. heh.
ERIC AHHHH! QIAN QIAN HUAN QIAN!!!!! OWE MONEY PAY MONEYYYYYYY!!!! LIM BU BO MONEY LIAOOOOO!!!
In regard to my previous post, i talked about kc right? yea. i talked about him. just wanna say all those are history. As what Mr.D said today, history will always be history. It cant be changed. Those are just my memories. All my besties knows how much memories means to me. Kc will never come back to me. I have already accepted that fact. It took me a good 6 months to get over. Even if he were to come back to me, things will not be the same. Frenz is the most both of us will get. I do miss him at times. I do compare what i had with him and what i have now. Cos we are human afterall. However, i also think rationally. I knew, kc is not gonna be there for me anymore. All i can say, is that, i dont love kc anymore. Just missed the old times and i jolly well know that history's aint gonna re enact again. Im moving on. But u made me feel so lost. Yes, im already lost. Mebbe, i'll take another 6 month to forget u. Mebbe, i will not. I dun know. they say time heals. yes it does. somehow the pain now is unbearable.
I was talking to angel this afternoon at the reservoir. We sat at the benches, listening to the wind whistle, feel the sun ray on our skin. We reminisce the past. It was... fantastic i say. I told her my life has became so aimless and meaningless. what happened to the good old huey wen in sec sch? working hard to excel. working v hard to maintain top 3 position in class. What did she gets in the end? Seriously, i need to start working out my life all over again. sigh. fan nao.
.missing.you.
China Doll
Sunday, August 21, 2005
talked about 7th month, today something incredible happened. I was in shop with Sally (S) while Xiaomin (XM) was having her break happily eating KFC in the store. So as usual, gossiping with S as there was only one customer inside and she dun seems to need any help. And S suddenly felt pain in her eyes so she keeps looking downwards. Suddenly, the chandeliar light went off. I immediately look up and saw it OFF! yes. it was off. Den i chiong into the store and switch it on. And i asked XM "eh, did u play with the chandeliar light switch not" XM den gave me a blur look. and i turned the knob to switch it on. Flabberghasted!!!!. XM gave me a NO. freaked.
I went out and ask S whether she saw the light went off. She replied " no leh, my eye v painful din notice. but i felt the store become darker." Den XM came out of the store v gan chiong liao, and ask me not to scare her. The problem is, i din scare her! I did see the light went off and i did go in and turn it on. Freak. We swore by heart none of us played around.
XM also complained she felt someone touch her butt. We got a "se gui" in our shop. CHOY GE LEY AHHHH!!!!!!! *TOUCH WOOOODD!!*
Anyway, was very pissed today by Resident KuKu YOYO. KNN COME IN OUR STORE SIT ON THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF FITTING ROOM!. NBCB! ME AND SALLY SCARED TILLLLLLL..... dot.. have to call the security. At first I dun know what to do den i run to S&K ask for help. Asked wee keong. den he come also blur blur. -.- mei you yong. LOL. Den the stupid Lee Hwa Jewellery people just watched and laughed. nb. bo xim. jitao angryyy!
Oh ya! I got an avid reader! LEE XIAOMIN!!!! she reads my blog!!! haha.. OKaez, xiaomin, this whole paragraph is dedicated to you. haha. Miss working with u so much!!!! had a great time today la. doing stupid things *dance Mr. bean dance* kakaka... aight XM, u gotta take care of yourself k? In the near future u are not in the same company, we shall meet up and have fun yea??? hehehe..
After work went down to town. Its been monthS since i last step into town. sigh. i feel soo detached from the society. walked around only la. see many nice nice things also cannot buy. sianz. Went home taking bus 518.
while i was waiting i saw Chinablack. I tot of KC. den suddenly i recalled how there was once, i was doing revision for my Os, study until quite tired already, i suddenly received his call! so happy! den i happy happy pick up lor. den he complained to me how he ran up and down Peninsula Plaza to find the shirt he wanted. However the shop was closed. He told me he was v sad and ran with his fren like crazy. i can hear his agony. haha.. so poor thing.. as my mother was in the same room, i cant say much so i just go " really ah? orhhhh.. hahah" den he asked "studying ah? k la. den i dun disturb u lee study hard ah! later i msg u norhz" so totful. and he sounded to gentle. so after that he msged me telling me what he was doing and stuff. beautiful memories. Wonder how he is doing now.
Den i tot of my ex, haiiiiiiiiizzzzz... is all i have to say. Doing quite alot thinkin lately. HAIIIIIIIIIII
China Doll
"maybe you can be a nice person and offer to do part of it"
This statement is so sarcastic. seems like im not a nice person all this while? okaez. i shall be nice and do it. What the fortune teller said was so true. Worked so hard also nobody will appreciate. damn. i hate school.
Went for the staff meeting. More like an interactive session. Not too bad. Reached Marina Square damn early, so walked around. Went to Tinkerbell to look at shoes when i heard some commotion near the arcade. Walked past, saw MANY MANY ppl outside Raiders Cafe. Whoa! First thought: "omg! dun tell me there got troubleee!!" Aiyo. den i run away. cos see so many ppl scared. den i start to worry. yes. i am a worrywart. aiyo! what if something happen to him! aiyo! aiyo! aiyo! want to go back and see see abit. den so scared. alamak. called angel for advise. aiyo! that girl going to johor! aiyo! shit her la aiyo!
haiz. howhowhow?
.missing.you.
China Doll
Saturday, August 20, 2005
I think i am very dumb. I took bus number 15 after work. Was tired so i slept in da bus. Dumb me actually overslept. missed my stop. went to pasir ris. FUCK! waste of my time. grrr... took a cab home in the end. And i spent 20 minutes to hail a cab!!!!!! freakin pissed.
Anyway, today parkway was very happening. Saw Constance Song, Huang Biren and Li nanxing. they were doing some filmin and they had some civil defence people runnin up and down. While me and cheryl stand in our shop and laugh at them running. HUANG BI REN SMILED AT ME CAN?!?! SHE IS SO DARN PRETTY!!!. and i served constance song when she came into our shop *cocky smile* she bought $156 of clothes from us. hurhur.
i almost fainted today too. why? cos Parkway's RESIDENT KUKU AKA YOYO came into our shop and danced. Alright. Here's the elaboration:
YOYO is an AH SIAO. who keeps walking up and down and DANCED! he's a malay. sometimes he even walks up and down half-naked. So today, he did his usual routine. This time, we experimented. When we played r&b, he will came in front of our shop and danced! but when we bomb techno, he just walk up and down without dancing. hmm... den, when we were playing r&b, he suddenly came in!!!! looked into our counter from abit of distance, den when into the fitting and dance. den walked out. When he walked in, i was all alone in the shop. Cheryl went to the ladies. Lucky she came back in time. i was really speechless. Workin in Parkway makes me feels that my life is in a risk. I feel so threatened. Not only one ah siao in parkway. Still got the original ah siao, loudspeaker and of cos the yoyo. T.T sobz.
me and bestie. look at that big pimple on my chin. *sIgH*
.missing.you.
China Doll
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Didn't really have a proper meal for the whole day till just now at around 11+pm? Was totally not in the mood for anything. Handed up my Graphic Design Fundamental. One down. Last 2 would be Journalism and essential graphic. peanuts. * GrInz*
Work was great. Especially with Azlena. She's a babe man. A girl who really knows how to enjoy life and have fun. She's my smoking khaki neeway. haha. Talked abt some personal things. Feels great. Crapped through work. Danced alittle to r&b. Yes! in the shop. Along with Cheryl, my new incharge. She's nice! ^^
Of cos early in the morning today, everything wasnt going very well. But somehow school and friends stop me from thinking about what happened. So my day was fantastic. How about the night? I guess it will be me getting emotional again.
Spare me from the agony.
BAH! I only had 2 hours + of sleep since last night till now. all thanx to myself for crying a river. whoa. and im nt grumpy at all. seriously, this is weird. By right i should be fucking tired now. Sleeping in buses does wonders *smilez*
China Doll
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
It's when he says "Do you think we should still be together?"
Its when he says "Everything just went wrong"
Its when he says "I really hope u will take care of yourself when i am no longer with you."
Its when he says " take care too my fren."
It is tough to hold back my tears. When I thought i could love u more than u loved me, u had the world came crashing down on me. Maybe we weren't mature enough. Maybe I was too naive. So much so that when i looked back, I laughed at myself.
Seriously, i don't know how i am going to handle all this. Exams are coming. Will i still be workin hard? I don't know. All i can feel now is just pure sadness. I won't expect myself to sleep tonight.
The last time i cried like how i did just now, was when KC went missing. Only some will noe how bad it is.
China Doll
Monday, August 15, 2005
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It got another B for my journal. Some reflective words. Cos my language sucks. I think if i work on my language i might get an A. i think that's what my teacher is tryin to tell me. sigh. Never mind. I shall work harder!
Also, we handed up our marketing plan. Finally! Im not gonna give a damn whether i got good grades. Cos I am going to study hard for examsss! weee!
After school slack about one hour with kenneth( the one we knew at Jam and Hop) at the nearby bubble tea shop. It amazes me once again. How yi ge da nan ren, can get all so emotional. Was having quite a nice conversation with him. Talked about GF, BF, frenz and quite alot.
Then my thoughts started to wander to my boy. Seems like calls and messages are getting lesser. Lets not say meet up. Im apologise on my part. argh. lets not say anything more.
Anyway, Im already thinking about our birthday. since our birthday are like less den one month apart. hmmm...
China Doll
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Whenever the younger brother did something that made the mother furious, the elder sister will be blamed. Despite the elder sister's effort to lighten the burden of everything, she is still being blamed on. To cope with work/school/love/friends/family, the elder sister bearly make it mentally/physically. The elder sister will always be the selfish one. Why? cause it is just the way it is.
Who ask me to be born with sucha life.
Crying definitely makes me feel a whole lot better. But it gives me bad headache. Am having a bad headache right now. so what? i still have to do my marketing plan, wake myself up bright and early in the morning to complete GDF assignment.
i love viceroy minty taste. and hated the after-smell. boo
China Doll
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Am suppose to be doing my marketing journal and medsoc thingy. BUT! i strayed again la. for the don't-know how many times already. this whole thing simply suck.
Tomorrow I am having my Media and Society Presentation. It's been a long time since i have something like that. I have not been on stage for a long long time. feeling rather jittery. I afraid i can't get use to the attention. I'm the second to speak. In the past, i used to loudly declare that all this presentations are just peanuts. Where have all my confidence went? I accumalated my experiences on stage through guzheng. since i have stopped, i gradually lost touch. Which is real bad. sigh. everything around me simply falls apart.
China Doll
Having this really empty feeling. Everytime i anticipate something that may happened, it nv. was it my fault or yours? I've been thinkin about this question.
I've warned u about my hectic lifestyle way before we 2 got together. U can say u will wait. But for me, i feel injustice and unfairness for you. U may not feel antyhing but i just feel so upset. what is the point of having a r/s when we dun even have the time for each other? How are we going to sustain sucha relationship for long? Ever since 26/07/03, did we ever spent quality time together? no.
i din mean to pester u to come and fetch me from work. but that is the only time when both of us can get together. i understand you have your frenx and ur own lifestyle. i have my own too. thats why other den fetching me from work i din wanna make u come down meet me or whatsoever. Am i right or wrong to do this?
I know i sound egoistic/sarca/smart-aleck/mean la.. It is just a way of protecting myself. Once bitten twice shy. I dun wan the same thing happen to me again. it hurts.
i am still unable to trust. pls prove me wrong darl. make me trust u, can you?
i hope we can talk thru everything. ilu darl.
China Doll
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
i really hate GDF. I HATE GDF!!!
IN A FOUL MOOD LA!!!
China Doll
Monday, August 08, 2005
yada yada... woke up in the morning. did everything fast and steady. was left with much time. so slacked around. haha.. and pictures! hehe
plain bored at home. not emy red adidas bag. *gIggle*
Written on my face "IM BOREDD!" so i proceed to work. Half morning! yeayea! till 2.45pm. Met up with angel at bus stop. Took bus down to MSQ. hehe. went to visit my boy. yea! afetr a week. gosh. he wore spec. act si wen only. lala.. bought him a drink. see, im sucha nice gf. =X but i see him for like less den 5 minutes la. booo... anyway, we made our way down to Marina South. Saw the NDP carnival. and WHOA! I saw tons of cars. subaru, honda, evo blah blah. i got high.. LOL
Mitsubishi Lancer.
Evolution! nice right? Then there was this car fair. We even saw Mdm Wu who used to be my chinese teacher. haha. many cars on display!
cool custom
xat or not??? i love it man. thou i dunnoe what model it is. the weather was killing me. was irritated. so i din bother to find out. haha
even more xat. tsk tsk. -speechless-
me and angel walked on. saw this lancer. hahaha... tot it was a normal lancer but.....
mai siao siao. Jackie Chan hor. whether it is his car or he driven it before or he likes this car, NO BODY CARES! MUAHAH =X
Then there was this car babes contest. We stayed and watched. haha.. who gives a damn abt the babes. What attracts us were the male models! HAHAHHA got even more high. i know my boy will get abit jealous. so i din tell him. hahaha. he reads my blog anyway.
HE IS DA ONE!!! he is so darn cute la... my type leh.... LOOK AT DATTTT CHHHHESSSTTTTT!! my goodness *rapid breathings*
the one one background is the one that made angel fainted. but i still think the above is better.
the hot bod the charming smirk. *SCREAMZZZ*
After we had enough pictures of everything( we took around 90++ pics for the whole day), we walked on. There was an area on more car exhibits.
subaru impreza. i noe this is Zhiwen's fave. and i saw him when we were on the way! haha.
So we 'sashayed' or rather we ki siao down the stretch of road. and i saw this black car. My immediate reaction was "FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!" *covers my mouth*
THIS IS NISSAN FAIRLADY 350Z ! ALSO MY DREAM CAR!. IT IS FUCKING CHIO! IT IS EVEN BETTER THEN THE GUY MODELS LA!!!
I GOT REALLY EXCITED! *cool down* and i decided to not miss the chance of getting intimate with my dream car. so, there u go, a pic of a siao charbor and nice car. i have to say. SHIT U ANGEL LA! WHY LEAVE SO MUCH BLANK SPACE! TAKE THE CAR MA! NOW THE CAR KANNA CUT!!!!! *ROAR* aight. u are forgiven. LOL
saw the magical 4 word? "350Z" and the 2 exhaust pipe!!!! * JUMPS AROUND AND SHOUTS FAIRLADY FAIRLADYYYYY!!"
saw this damn cute car. cock ur head pls. im too lazy to rotate it.
after all the ga-gaing over hunks and cars, we made our way to teh army carnival. one the way... yes.. zi lian.
LOL. wats with our expression? =X
walk walk walk. WAHHHH! SO MANY GUYS IN UNIFORM. BTH LIAO LA! WO KAI SHI FA SHAOOO! =X *sIaO*
and we continue to find lor.. den i started laughing.. why? look below.
HAHAHAH! HE IS SLEEPIN MAJIAM A KOALA BEAR!!! i noe we are mean to laugh and take pic la. but cant help it. =X
Finally we reached! many many many NS guys! told darl about it. and i think he got real jealous la. cos he said " bu jian de u see me will high" HAHAHHA darn cute. nvm la. my pattern is like tt de ma. u can also see girls i dun mind d. I LOVE U DARL! hahaha...
This guy was suppose to be standing up straight and still. I decided to take a pic. den he suddenly did this pose. shock the hell out of me.
newater droplet. I LOOK FAT
And there is this kawaii baby!!! i think he cried because he was very touched that he is able to sit on a military vehicle at sucha young age. haha
Yes. all happy things have to come to an end. we went onto another crazy happening. STEAMBOAT AT ZHEN FA HUO HAI XIAN! haha
me and angel.
me and henry
martin. he's henry fren who joined us real late. he is a freaking joker la bth. just get to noe him. but majiam abang liao. LOL he is a certified kopi kia =X
i seriously dunnoe what he wants to do
-.-
yes. finally a more decent pic from the two guys.
As we were eating, there was firework la. damn pretty. Some ppl from next table said $12 bao chi bao kan. even had concert. bao ting also leh. LMAO. super funny.
jing ting and daniel
me and kok tao. =X
aftermath. we spent 2 hours eating. we got injured too. =(
the guys ordered one jug of tiger beer. one jug only. cos all of us were broke. HAHA
After the steamboat we went to nearby arcade to play. had really great fun. I even found my hometown fren, MARTIN! we made a fool of ouself all teh way home by speaking in m'sian accent. Martin even wanted to dance in front of the police. People from bus stop was staring. so paiseh! my gdness! really had fun. it's been sucha long time since i had so much fun. thanx guys.
looking forward to tuesday too. ^^