China Doll
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Parkway team will be transfered back w.e.f from tomorrow. That makes Saturday my last day in Bugis since I am not working today.
Althou I was alil' upset with the sudden change, but working with people from I.P Zone was really enjoyable. C.K aka Chicken little was really funny and a gentleman. Always accompanying me for breaks. RuiPing and her black face. She's nice anyway. ^^ Jenny and her pretty face. Junwen and his lame joke althou I've already known him. Yun Man, really cute. Javier who looked like 24 years old althou he's the same age as me. It's really tiring to work in Bugis as I am very used to the slacking days in Parkway. Guess I'll be droppin by someday! ^^
Met up with girl for some late dose of coffee. It was lame and extremely hilarious!! What dreadlock aunties. -.- Cant wait for National Day!!!!
3 Nissan Fairlady 350Z from Tokyo Drift to end off the post!
<3!
<3!!
China Doll
I know you will be reading this. So I'll just say it all out here. Cause Im too lazy to write a proper letter for you to read.
I know you meant well. I know you wanted the best out of me. But everything isn't the same anymore. We can't go back to the past anymore. It freaks me out. I won't be able to face you like how we first met. It different now geddit?
I have told you all the reasons I broke up with you. Nothing much more to explain.
I don't want to know what you are thinking and I don't want you to make all the extra effort which you think will make me happy. I don't want you to understand me and I don't want to understand you. I don't want to hear the preachings and advices. I don't want anything from you. No lollis no eggtarts. The more you come closer, the more I drift away.
I treated you coldly for reasons. I don't want to have this kinda draggy kinda r/s. I hate that. So just leave me as I am.
China Doll
Friday, July 28, 2006
Just got my pay. 3 hours in Bugis. Total damage = approximately $100.
It wasn't really spent on unnecessary stuffs. Bought my contact lense solution, protein remover, eyelash curlers, foundation, hp headset, earstuds, I manage to curb my urge to buy a brand new blusher, eat nonstop, buy accessories.
At least I managed to control. It's a good sign. Keeping in mind that I will be going out to ktv, eat, slack, play, shop on National Day! YEAAA! WO AI NI DARLING! LOL
I need advice. Should I wrap my phone? My beloved D820 had so many injuries. It wil cost $44 to wrap my phone double layer (My phone has to be wrapped double layer because it's a slide phone @#$%^&). And the shop at Bugis Village does have designs that I like very much. Should I spend the money or not? ADVICE PLEASEEE!
China Doll
Thursday, July 27, 2006
I wasn't in the right state of mind for the past few days. I apologise for all the tantrums I've thrown.
I feel extremely bad for not contributing much to my group projects. =( I will try to make it up. ^^
Working at Astroboy with Gina so fun! I feel so comfy talkin to her. As if we have known each other for long! BwaH!
Saw pohleng!! Saw the girl I knew at Parkway! Saw Vivien! One thign good about Bugis is that I get to see al my long lost friends! MWAHHHHH
China Doll
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
No. Im not ok. I am irritated, frustrated and feeling fucking inferior. School makes me sick. At this point of time, I think I will be much more happier workin full-time.
In fuckin bad mood. What made it worst was, of course, school, nonsensical and illogical words just came and made me felt like fuck.
I know I should be contented. But things just don't work the way they are suppose to. Everybody says "As long as you tried your best, it's good enough." How can it be good when this fuckdap world just look at results and not processes. They don't recognise your effort. They just wanna see the results
Working makes me happy.
I hate this world. Bring me away. =(
China Doll
My mood has been fluctuatin like mad since last week. One moment Im down. The next moment Im so hyped up.
Whatever it is, life hasnt been really good. Crashed girl lecture. It's been a long time since we had a great laugh together. U never fails to make me fail alot more better.
Today's YuJie's 17th Birthday
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY SI GIN NA YU JIEEEE!!
I like the way he laugh. haha. v cute.
Meeting Eric for breakfast tomorrow morning. zzz. at 8. How early.
Broadcast sucks. I hate broadcast.
This week, the whole of Bugis team wil do an exchange with Parkway team. Meaning I will be working at Bugis. Ooooolala.. will i get to see him again?
neeway, weather veyr hot ah. The start of 7th month!!!
China Doll
Monday, July 24, 2006
Was on the bus today to work and this idea just suddenly struck me! Then, I smiled to myself. Because I think it will be a brilliant idea. It will definitely move her to tears. I KNOW HOW TO SURPRISE MY BESTIE ON HER 18TH BIRTHDAY CHALET LE! *EVIL LAUGH!* HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!
DingDing! Life's getting boring. Oh no. It shouldn't be.
OH NO! I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED WE HAVE TO TABULATE RESULT FOR BMR RESEARCH AND CHURN OUT THE WHOLE DAMN TABLE! BWAH!!! Kan chiong spider. I will be working alot more next weeekkkkK! omgomgomg. zzz. And then it's time to start revising BMR. zzz. BMR is gay. Huh huh huh. where got time. =(
Oh yea. on the 23rd of July is Quek Jinhao de 21st birthday.
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY 3RD CLASS!! ^^
China Doll
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Been rather emo for the past few days. Not sure why. Just emo.
Was on the bus today going to work, I started pondering over some trivial matters. Despite being trivial matters, they makes alot of sense and it the facts of life.
Some people have huge circle of friends. But when they are feeling really empty and hollow, why isn't there anyone be there? Meet up have a good chat? Call and concern? Text and console? Why is it that when they wanted to be alone, people come around bombing them?
Jealousy makes us evil people. But is jealousy something we can control?
We cant do anything but to complain and whine. Is that what we can do only? Is there another way out to make us feel alittle better about life?
Was thinking about the past while working. It was heartwarming. Till I smiled, almost cried. Then I was snapped back to reality. It's time to draw a clear line between fairy tales and reality. It's no point being shadowed by the past. Because the clock still tick, tides still rise and fall, the earth still revolves the sun.
Fate played us like a fool.
China Doll
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Edited:
Somehow, someday, somewhat.
=( emo emo emo.
China Doll
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
I am so goddamn #%^&*^. I wan silence after breakup. I wan peace after breakup. Is that so difficult to give? For what you come and tell me about what you have done? What are you trying to say? I told you it's over and in the mean times I have no intention of going into r/s. Just for fuck sake let me do what I wan, THE WAY I WANT TO DO MY THINGS.
I know you are going to read this. I know you are gonna keep your promises. Thats good. Don't do it for me. Do it for yourself. I don't want to be a stake for you. I have done all the serious thinking. I am happy being where I am now. No commitment no nothing. It's frenship kinship more frenship and more kinship. Thats enough for me. As for you, go figure what you want, what you have. You control your own life. You determine your own life. I know I sounded harsh. I didn't want to. But I have no choice. I want to put a stop to everything. And I appreciate every little thing you did. I really do but just gimme a break.
I know you will say you want to clarify things if you ever read this. I don't want to listen and I don't wanna know. Maybe it's a form of escapism. BUT JUST LEAVE ME ALONE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
BLAH! JUST WHEN I TOT I AM GOING TO BE THE HAPPY LITTLE GIRL WHEN I ONCE WAS, EVERYTHING IS MESSED UP!!! well, i have to be hard-hearted thou i feel bad. hmm
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Anyway. darling girl called me 5.15 am sharp this morning. FWAH! Shock the hell outta me. Fate sometimes is cruel. They play all sorts of games with us. Don't worry girl. Know what? God gave us pretty faces, in return, they mess with our love life. hah. It was such coincidence. Was it? Was it not? Whatever it is girl, go on with life. You have me, your friends, everyone will be around you. ^^
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Yesterday, chilling with tua neh aka xiaoling was good! Slacked at starbuck bitch about this and that. Saw Minfei and couldn't recognise Yujie. haha. Yes yes. I can see the shock on Minfei's face when I saw I donnot who's that person and took me awhile to realise it's YUJIE! HE IS SO TALL! No, he LOOKS TALL for his age.
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Screwed my second take for Broadcast Performance. Sigh. I miss my girlie. Blah...
China Doll
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Im sweating profusely right now. Which I reckon is good? My fever went up to 38.2 degree celsius. Oh my god ah. A long long time since I fall sick. Damn. My throat is better. Honey water, salt water, liang teh, bitter teh works! ^^
I'll be good now and start eating antibiotics! =D
China Doll
I knew this day would come any sooner. Almighty Wen is SICK! Totally the wrong time to be sick. Tomorrow I have a Broadcast recording to be done. How to speak? I totally cannot speak at all. NNB. How I dont overdose on lozenges and saltwater. bluagh. Anymore remedies to recommend? I DIE DIE HAVE TO GET WELL BY TOMORROW!!!
China Doll
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Today I am extremely happy. And I have found many reasons to be happy!
*I got a B for my Audiopro individual assignment 3 although I exceed the time which is suppose 45 seconds. I did a 1 minute 20s due to my stupidity. But I do like my opening for that assignment very much!
*I worked with Yati and Huijun aka Ah bu today!
*Im practising self-control!
*I came home to find mummy cooked my favorite vinegar pig trotter and warm it for me before she went to sleep. She also warm up the rice which she normally don't. I love mummy! I love didi! I love korkor! I love my gfs!
*I use to hate Stars are blind by Paris Hilton. But now I found it catchy. But her video kinda sucks. It's so her style. Rolling around on the beach with a guy and singing away clad in skimpy leapord print bikini. I realise she cant really dance too. It was so funny! Go watch it on Youtube. LMAO. This song was one of the songs for my Audiopro assignments. HAHA
Since Im in good mood, I shall post up a pretty pretty pic of myself! ^^
Teeheehee.. Im happy. So Im pretty!!!
China Doll
Thursday, July 13, 2006
FWAH! Been really really tired. Assignments assignments and assignments. Am done with my BMR critique. But Im still not feeling good about it. Somehow I think I will flop the assignment. Sigh. Sibei stress you know.
Darling girl got her leg casted. Darlinnnnnn take care k.... Quickly recover.. We must wear heels and go town shoppin. lolz. I miss ya laaaa...
Alas, peace. But I still pray for the best for you. Tomorrow's your ORD parade. ORD lo. *Smile* And quit please.
It's been a long long time since I post a picture.
TA-DAH!
A very harmonious picture. Don't be sad people. I know you all wants my picture. very soon i promise! ^^
P/S: I'll be in very good mood for the next few days So don't try to spoil my day. No reasons to why Im happy. im just happy! ^^
China Doll
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
The outburst of emotions during BMR lecture was a shock for myself. Lets not say my mates. The constant control to keep my emotions down the whole day drained all my energy.
Thank god, I did not allow my emotions to screw my Multicam Tv production. It was average, not very fantastic, not very bad. I'm happy being the audio person. Mr.Pok was very nice to share some juicy gossips about some people.
Up next will be BMR individual assignment, BroadcastPerformance Co-host recording, Multicam individual proposal 2. Not forgetting surveys that are to be done.
Chillin with girl did lift my mood. She's the truly one who stood by me all the time. Also my mates who tried cheerin me up. ^^
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You are a disappointment. That was childish, immature and ridiculous. I don't want to say anymore. I don't want to aggravate situations. Give me peace please.
China Doll
am like goddamn stress.. His messages were very disturbing.. my conscience is clear. I have nothing to hide thus nothing to explain. update more tonight..
China Doll
Monday, July 10, 2006
shit. Start to fan jian again. -.-
China Doll
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Early morning.. happyily prepared to go suntannin. it was cancelled due to unforeseen circumstances. So never mind. Happy happy wanted to la kopi at night. Also cancelled due to anotehr unforeseen circumstances. So I stayed at home all day doing my work. like shit man. =(
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On a lighter note, well I was taking my nap this evening, I had a dream again. It was a dream about me and my ex. Super funny siao that dream.
Off to do multicam. zzz..
China Doll
Everything's over. I initiated. Because I could not take it anymore. I realise Im not cut out to be in a relationship. What is relationship? I don't really understand. What matters to me most is kinship and friendship.
I was serious about you and I did cherish those moments you were with me. You gave in to me, bring me to different places to enjoy good food, bought me stuffs that I like. I cant deny that you are freaking good to me. But it is so stressful so tiring to be with you.
It is heart wrenching to hear your choked voice. It almost made me regret what I said. I know, its hard for you. But I am left with no choice. I don't want you to suffer together with me. Someone else worth your love, not me.
For now, I hope you can go on with your life, stop spending on unnecessary things for me, be more mature and think of the aim of ur life. No silly and morbid thoughts.
Last words.
Fate will decide whether we will meet again. I believe in Fate.
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Oh yes. Tml is tanning day with girl. Im so excited!!! MUAHHHH!!
China Doll
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Beware: This is a superbly long one.
Name twenty people you can think of right now.
Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.
At the end of this, choose five people to do this.
1) angelina tan
2) weili
3) tiny aka rena
4) angeline jie
5) quek jin hao
6) Ho kaichong
7) dexter cheong
8) tua neh aka xiaoling
9) lynnie
10) feli
11) laura
12) jac
13) reuben
14) pohleng aka bao bao
15) cheryl tay tay
16) bird bird aka elizabeth
17) yati
18) huixin aka xinxin
19) ebel
20) benny
How did you meet #14 (baobao aka pohleng)?
during those fantastic secondary sch days. we were in the same orchestra grp.. awwww.
What would you do if you didn't meet #1 (angel tan)?
i will be anti-social, loner, autistic(is this how u spell it? no idea..)
What if #9 (lynnie) and #20 (benny) dated?
no way. one guai kia and one beng OOPS
Would #6 (ho kai chong) and #17 (yati) make a good couple?
no. they will nv go for each other -.- oh well who knows? lOL
Describe #3 (Tiny aka rena).
She's tiny! hahaha
Is #8 (tua neh aka xiaoling) attractive?
yepz.. she got this unique look in her..
Describe #7 (dexter cheong).
he looks like wugui.. ahahha
Do you know any of #12 (jac) family members?
erm.. no.. she's my classmate in poly. LOL
What would you do if #18 (huixin) confess to you that she likes you?
ahahahahh WAIT LONG LAAA.. HAHHAHA
What language does #15 (cheryl tay tay) speak?
she can speak english with v good indian accent that made me laughed liek shit
Who is #9 (lynnie) going out with?
she's single and available! OOPS
How old is #16 (bird bird)?
18
When is the last time you spoke to #13 (reuben)?
less den an hour ago. he's my bro
Who is #2's (weili) favourite band/singer?
I KNOW I KNOW! AYUMI!!!!
Would you ever date #4 (angeline jie)?
burps im straight
Would you ever date #1 (angelina tan)?
we have been on so many dates already.. haha
Is #15 (cheryl tay tay) single?
nopeee..
What's #10's (Feli) last name?
xiu hui! hahah
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 (laura)?
even if i wan she wouldnt wan.. HHAH
School of #3 (Tiny)?
TP HTM
Where does #6 (ho kaichong) live?
Jurong west =(
What's your fave thing about #5 (quekquek aka quek jinhao)?
he has got damn pretty eyes
Have you seen #2 (weili) naked before?
i dun wan to see lor..
The Five People I'm gonna tag Are:
1. angelina tan
2. lim weili
3. laura
4. pohleng
5. erm...benny?
China Doll
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
The frequent headache Im having almost everyday is driving me insane. I don't want to depend so much on panadol. Many people told me it is not good to over depend on panadol. But I have no choice. I used to hate panadol but now it seems to be a must-have thing in my coin pouch. At first it is the normal kinda panadol but now, it is those extra strong ones.
Sometimes the pain hurts so much that I totally blank out in my mind and I seriously cant get down to work. I fuckin hate it when this happens in school. Just like today. It got so bad that the throbbing in my head made me so giddy. I feel faint. Then, we were suppose to do the rehearsals for multicam and we took up different roles.
I am controllin camera 2. Studio Director said: "Cam 2 calibrate focus." Then, I cant think. I FORGOT HOW TO CALIBRATE FOCUS! Nothing appear in my mind. Sucha easy thing and I am unable to do it. Then Mr Yap asked me to go up to panel and gave me a earful.
I am not blaming it on my headache but I just feel very useless and very incompetent. Easy task like controlling camera yet I am unable to do it. What the fuck has become of me? Why won't my headaches/migraine or whatever shit it is just go away? Why can't I have better memory and be alittle smarter? I feel so inferior. Sigh.
Now, it is the time when I regretted coming to this course. Maybe Im not cut out to be in this course. Maybe this maybe that.
Maybe alittle crying will make me feel better. Maybe a nap after crying will make me happy. But will time allow me to do so?
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I thank my girl and my girl, for their simple yet sweet lil' concern and messages cheered me up. Thou boy always show me attitude. =(
China Doll
Monday, July 03, 2006
It feels like ages since I last blog. The usual, busy with work and school. What else can it be. I dont know what to update. zZz