China Doll
Thursday, June 30, 2005
im gonna sing a song.
"turn me onnnnnn~ turn meeeee onnnnnn~" (Kevin lyttle)
wanna turn me on? present urself in smart and neat army uniform! and i'll love u like crazy. *LMAO*
was in school. and they had displayed some tanks and all the army related stuff. HAHAHA. and of cos, the SAF guys. *WOOT* best part of everything. gei siao ask this and ask that. actually.. u noe la.. *hurhur* got a few damn cute lor.. muaaa gaaaawwwddd....
so dumb of me to think "sacali saw him wor!" dumb me. will nv happen. HAHHA but yea, everything reminds me of him. neeway, he look darn smart in army uniform ah! i saw the pics. fucking cute. sigh.. if he were STILL mine.. damn. Its over. time ta wake up.
projects to be done. dunnoe where to start. dun feel like starting. dammmmn.. neeway i finished my MedSoc studyin already. ahha.. left with journalism. weeeee....
i need a life.....
China Doll
My news writing was a total crap. im amazaed by how much lies and stories i can cocked up. woot. i can be a storyteller.i'll just have to wait for my senior's call. VERY IMPT!
China Doll
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
haha.. im so darn happy. done with my journal. thou im writing crap. anyway. for ur info, i wrote on MISHHA! hahaha hahahhahahhaha -skip around-. i love missha! muahaha..
neeway, pay here! can spend alittle bit. at least they makes me happy. hahahahahahaha. am tired already. er. i forgot wat i wanna blog about. hehe.. anyway, while waiting for the cmm council thing to start, me and christ walked alittle around TM and CSQ. took neoprint, played arcade played pool. muahahahha how i wish everyday's like tt with my pals. sigh. pics willl be uploaded. cos im damn happy about my bod in the neoprint. xD
dun luff. i noe i spelled the words wrongly. cos there is time constraint! cant be blamed hee.
okaez. lesbianism. NOT k! was tryin to think of poses. there we goo.. kissss
i love my waist and tummy when i come red auntie. cos it gets damn flat.
oh ya. some dumbass tried to ask for my number when im at popular. wat the hell. -.-
China Doll
Monday, June 27, 2005
i got a B for my marketin journal. sigh. i have yet to do my journalism. i dunnoe how to do my next marketing journal. help anyone? sigh.
China Doll
IM TOO ANGRY TO BE WRITING ANYTHING!
China Doll
Sunday, June 26, 2005
fucking angry fucking piss fucking dulanz.
when u are unwell, how u expect me to do things without making mistakes. u threw insults and nasty comments at me. so wat even u hold a higher post and is OLDER then me. so what if my handwriting is uglier den urs? thats is my handwriting. what fucking shit it has got to do with you. bitch. fucking bitch. paris wannabe. mebbe u can be as famous as paris if u go round fuckin guys. nbcb. dun blame me for showing u attitude.
China Doll
Thursday, June 23, 2005
i am damn fucking tired today sia. all the way from school start to school end. Esp. GDF and Essgraph. Holymolyyyy.. how imma going to pass my assignments like this. hafta do a brochure of GDF. damn it. =( i hate it.
anyway, during journalism today, Josiah my classmate said i look like a mix. Yes yes i know. alot of ppl say that. but he said i look a grunch. den PeiQi interrupted saying "malay bitch!" but wat she meant was grunch stand for malay bithc. but Josiah retorted that it is not. He says a malay who dresses differently la.. den i got very upset. so i asked them their first impression on me isit liek ah lian? LUCKY THEY REPLY NO! just say i am very different. hehehe.. happy happy meeeee =P
eyes were half closed all the way for GDF and ESSGRAPH. damnit i hate both subject. booo la... started revising le.. HEHEHHEHE! guai kia...
was listening to alot of sentimentals songs nowadays.... sighh...
China Doll
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
almost every night, i feel so empty. feel so depressed. feel so helpless. Alot of things had been happening to me. i dunnoe if im taking it well. all the time i talk myself to senses. i think and think till i tot i had already gotten an answer to everything.
but somehow, when i tot everything will be ok, it seems that fears starts to set into my heart. i cant stop worrying. school sucks. work sucks. home sucks. wth. how the hell am i gonna survive? mebbe i shouldnt go to a university afterall. mebbe i'll just take a pte degree. but think about the money. sigh. why has it to be this way. i have so many unfulfilled dreams. so many wishes undone. yet the burden is so heavy right on my shoulder.
how i wish i can just throw everything down and heck care. haha. yea right. if only i can do that.
im startin to wonder if i have chosen the right course? i like my course. but the stress is pressing on me so hard. everybody's expectations are so high. i feel like a dumbass comparing myself with my classmates.
Work. i starting to really heck care my work. quite a few times i forget to remove the drawer keys when rushing to serve customers. at that point of time there is someone else at the counter. automatically i have to make myself scarce. and i tot that someone is dere so the ey dangling there will be alright. but it seems like everything's my fault. sigh...
life hasnt been goin the way i wanted it to go. it all shouldnt be wat it is now. im lost,
China Doll
geez... in the mac lab for GDF tutorial. was damn boring. new teacher mr.kenny yong.. boo la.. =X ms ng better. cos she will gives us lotsa break. =X nth much to do. over and done with my first individual assignment. sucks. bahhhh... i had schooollll! i wanna go back work.
anyway, yesterday i was listening to JJ's second album.... heard Jing Ling. sigh.. memories again. my beloved angel had some problems. it seems to me that history is repeatin itself. it kinda freaks me out. but at least she's alot more luckier. =D cheerios girl. gotta chill. wait till term test is over. we gonna play pool, slack at starbucks, partyworl. whoa.. that kinda life simply rock right? muahahaha..
i hate it when ppl add me in msn w/o letting me know. it is just so irritatin. #$%^ =X kkakka..
lesson's so boring. havin journaliam lecture. gonna be super boring. my tummy is grumbling.. lets start thinkin of wat to eat. WHAHAHHAAHHA...
China Doll
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
yea~ a new layout and tagboard. actually i din really like this layout. grrr.. but i lik ethe moomoo alot!! *yO leh yO!* wait till i have the time to search for a nicer one. heee...
boo la.. was frustrated. ARGHHH!!! screwed my essential graphic assignment. sign...
China Doll
Sunday, June 19, 2005
my damn blogskin cocked up. and i have no more new templates as i have reformatted my com. leave a comment ba.. just have to wait. slowly wait till i have the time den i'll do smth about. i'll just leave my blog as it is now. ROAR.
China Doll
wah... my waist's gonna break soon. worked full shift for da day. slept for my 2 break. Shiok ah. dam tired. saw vincent my yr 3 senior on da bus. he look so smart! haha. he v nice. he say anything can ask him help. den ask him know photoshop not. "DUNNOE" kns him.
saw baooO! i mish her. i mish pool session with my girls. i mish sentosa tanning. i mish starbuck slackin i mish shoppin. sigh.. wat has my life became.
i missed my dance audition. sigh.. haiz... zZz
China Doll
Saturday, June 18, 2005
bahz. today was so so for me. media and society suck. but i kind like kinghar. she's nice thou i usually dun understand what she is tryin to say. had APEL. my care teacher was nice enough to treat the whole class at the cafe. imagine how much the whole thing would cost. gosh.. did he just struck lottery or what?
after everything ended, angel came to find me. i was really stressed up. so reliefed to see her. cried when trying to improve my logo. am really stressed. think i can forget about going to university. sobz.
back at home, havin my mum nag at me. fucked up. dun wish to blog anymore. __
China Doll
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Now, i've got my own room. im kinda sad actually. cos he's one of the nciest tenant i've got. moreover it feels as if we are chasing him away. haiz. Mum said he is going back to myanmar le. i din even say a goodbye to him. i feel alittle selfish. he helps me wash up dishes. helps us repair broken appliances lend us vcd sometimes treat us to meals. bought expensive bdae present for my lil bro. sucha nice tenant where to find. meaning lesser income for the family also le. stressed.
im really very stressed up. more and more projects. standards must be high. all my work are kns. how to go university like tt. =( no hope for me le... i ask angel if it is time to find a bf. she say: U AH!? HOW CAN! SO BUSY! HOW TO COMMIT.
true lor.. mebbe i go be nun and get busy for the rest of my life ler.. *aMItaBha* my ankle is hurting. zZz really need to go see the chinese acupuncture le. watever u spell it. heee.. my spelling suck.
as promised, the story of boy girl.
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Boy den suddenly MIA. Girl was ver sad. Initially girl thot boy busy. but she really dunnoe. boy nv gave her a clear explanation. GIRL VERY SAD AH!!! Girl cannot forget him. think of him miss him write his name stare at his pic. stupid right... girl knows it is stupid. but she simply cannot forget. mebbe.. someday... one day.. girl will forget guy ba..... =)
China Doll
went to Angel house to slack before goin to JJ's concert. her niece!=D
my forever so cute darling JJ singing
when waiting to queue up. this what was behind us. hur...
when quein up.
OUR FRONT! hahaha
JJ's mtv being shown b4 concert starts
JJ norh.
xD~
qing qi de!! =X
JJ playin guitar. SO TALENTED!
China Doll
Monday, June 13, 2005
This is a story of you and me.
Long long time ago, heaven played a game on a guy and a girl. the two of them met thru some online network thing. They had never met. They got into contact. they messaged they called. Guy loves to play and have fun. Girl loves to do that too. But due to restrictions, she cant. Girl envied Guy. She liked how Guy always tell her where he went what he bought. Practically everything Guy do. Slowly, Girl developed feelings for Guy. Soon, Guy came to know about it. Guy told Girl that he liked her too. But still, they had never met. They were just like bf and gf. called each other dear darlings and all the mushy things. Guy can sing very well. Girl love to hear Guy sing. Every little word that Guy says made her heart melt. Girl's friends should know it well. Girl took up the courage. She knew she liked Guy v much. She put all her feelings into it. Yet they still nv met. They were not together at all. den one day...... (to be continued)
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i swear i will change my blogskin and song one day. wait. wait till i have the time. =D
China Doll
Sunday, June 12, 2005
i swear JJ is a freakin good singer.!!! migosh! he definitely rocks k. -melt- had fun during the scool concert. of cos of JJ la. =X duh! but suay leh. weird weird de things keep happenin when we were takin photos. neh mind. mebbe because of the lightin ba. when i have da time pics will be uploaded. after the concert went slackin session with kenneth and guohong. lala. kenneth kanna shoot by me till he bwg. *VICTORY* haha. den give excuses that he is sick. duhh! den guohong diam diam d. haha.. den angel keep luffing -_-'''
work was fun. constand bombing of techno. WHOA loud and thumpin. shiok ah. was busy all d way. havin sales as usual lotsa kiasu ppls.
listen to JJ song at night. his old songs. haiz.. memories..........
China Doll
Friday, June 10, 2005
am damn fucking happy. got my tic to JJ's TP concert. hoho. me and angel got he tic b4 the Q starts. hehe.. cos got help ma.. =D thanx to jingting de fren. HOHO!
went to work. was fine. time passes quickly. wasnt in da mood to work. sigh. sally help me alittle with my logo. guess she's always the one with the arty mind. haha. thanx girl. =D
saw his new photo on frenster. cute nehz.. new adidas jacket sia.. i wan also dun have. can only buy ebase jacket muahaha.. -.- aiya. main point is at least i noe he is still doing fine. great! =D
alot of guys love to ask me this question " so i stand a chance not" wth. how u peeps expect me to answer leh. haizzz.. christina say time to find bf liaoo... me "HAR!?!?!" where got time. me either spend my time in school or at work or slackin with fren or at home d. cannot commit la... haiyo.
-muthafucker just lemme lead my life in peace __*
China Doll
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
hmm. slept real early yesterday. was havin a bad headache. no choice. had to sleep early. 10pm! how early. had a good slp. *yAwNz* but had a headache again today. hmm. i think i noe why le.
hee.. essential graphic was damn fun.! Guess my teacher got very pissed off. cos me and my frenz kept asking for help. But we computer idiot ma! abit slow in computer stuff. hee.. so no choice ah. =X was actually rather fedup with some of my classmates attitude. *bth* argh. assignments and stuff. managed to finish my second marketing journal. haiz. Think is CMI! =(2 and 1/3 page only. very little leh. haiz. cannot consider finish already.
went to parkway with chantel, william, selena and alan. wanna watch chantel pierced the web between the forefinger and thumb. how cooL! but i cant go in and watch la. waste my time. @#$%^&* i gave up my time to print notes in school to watch u noe. =(
slack in angel's house after that. fool around. laugh as usual. haha.
still thinkin about my logo thingy. haiz. im so sad. i cant think of anything. help!!!! saded.
China Doll
Monday, June 06, 2005
haiz. super down. no appetite to eat. no mood to talk. totally down. still hafta wake up early tml morning to go down old tampines dunnoe where to do my journalism project. hmm.. have yet to print out my notes.
lala. dunnoe wat has got into me. ever since so much things happened, i've changed le.
=(
China Doll
Sunday, June 05, 2005
if i ever did say smth wrong without knowing it den im v sorry. cos at this point of time my brain aint functionin very well. sorry if i have not only offended one of ya but many of ya. sorry im sorry for wats happenin. i felt sorry for people out dere i felt sorry for myself. mebbe to u people its an excuse. i couldnt care. just take it im a no-brainer. im nv smart.
China Doll
HUEY WEN DOESNT LIKE TO TALK AT NIGHT COS SHE IS DAMN TIRED!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
China Doll
Saturday, June 04, 2005
SO UNFORTUNATELY I SPRAINED MY ANKLE YESTERDAY! It wasn't that serious. Not that kind u had a ba zhang your ankle. NoNo. Im gonna freak out if that really happened to me. *sCreaMz*
Work was alright with Rosabel and HuiFang. Desperately trying to fight the fatigue inside me. Had a hard time keeping myself in a chirpy mood. Hope i don't collapse again.
I miss my girlfriends. Especially Angelina Tan Kah Ying. Eh girl, next friday most likely im not gonna work. go out yea? *MuaCkz*
I had been neglecting my friends, my brother and my health. Or is it that time is neglecting me? Going so fast, leaving me a slow mover behind? I am trying my best to catch up with Time. It goes so fast. So fast that i am gasping for breath. I aint a good runner nor i have good stamina. Help! For goodness sake.
Met BinBin, my colleague yesterday when i reliefed in Wisma. She's a great girl!!! Outgoing, stylish, funky, funny and etc. Wow! Lookin forward to see her again. Hee.
Lotsa things to be done. argh. *roaR*
China Doll
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Current song on playlist's "Don't Phunk With My Heart" by the Black Eyed Pea. Awesome song. Very much in love with it.
Lecture and tutorial was like *roll eyes* DAMN BANALLLLLL! OMIGOSHHHHH! I CANT STAND IT! TOTAL WASTE OF TIME!!!!!
Honestly, I'm rather stressed up. Already having assignments and stuff. Fret and fret over it. Design a logo. WTF! I DUNCH KNOW HOW TO DESIGN A LOGO!!!! damnit. Yes. More up to come. Very shag to juggle between school and work. well i've no choice. i'll pull through. =D
Joined the Dance Ensemble. of cos hiphop category laaaa... alamak. haha. hope the timing i'm able to make. i seriously wanna learn how to dance hiphop. *woot* geez. dun laugh at me k? got ppl say i dance well de hor! mai siao siao. *LOL* just hope im able to commit ba. =D
Work was fun in a certain sense. Because i have alot of girls of my age come up to me "ehh u from TP business school one right?"
"err.. yea... Im from TP *SMILE*"
"ohhh wat course ah?"
"CMM. *smile politely"
"aiyo. wat course is that?"
" Communication and Media Management. *smile*"
"ohh.. okok.. so do i get discount?!"
NB! U ALL THINK I SANTA CLAUS AH! U ALL THINK I OWN THE COMPANY AH! If u recognise me as a student who studies the same school as u, pls try to make my life easier. I cannot go round giving everyone discount. Yes, im proud to work in Ebase. I tell everyone i work in Ebase. YA LA! I WASNT TRYIN TO TELL ALL OF YA THAT U CAN GET DISCOUNT FROM ME!!! -.-
not 1 person, not 2 not 3.. but soo many ppl noes that im from TP. wth! not as if im some bigshot celebrity or what. *sIGh*
my class have some bimbos. OMGGGGG!! *COVERS MY MOUTH* not exactly. they can speak and write good english. so.. they are bimbos who excel in english? wow. what has the world become.