China Doll
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
im not sure why. but this kinda feelin jux got over me. this world suck. i feel like isolatin myself. be it work or family. i jux suddenly lost interest in everything. i wanna go into deep slp. but i cant.
gettin ill already. had fever in da middle of da night. was shiverin. wanted to sms him. but guess he would be asleep. how sad. i miss him. tml supposed to go for the sentosa trip again. but not feelin well. not goin. sms cher to inform her but she din reply. hope she is not very upset bout it. im real sorry.
my incharge did evaluation with me. my performance in work is TWO THUMBS DOWN. bad bad bad. but is it forgivable? it is my first job afterall. but i got so demoralised. why why why. why did this kidna thing happen. mebbe im not suitable for this kinda work. angel want to quit already. but im workin for da sake of money. after quittin wat will i do? angel can afford to slack but i cant. zZz life is nv fair. so is the world. this is wat my colleagues jasmine said to me. anyway, she did enlighten me. she is really a nice girl. love chattin with her.
my incharge says i need more enthusiasium. watever u spell it. my english suck. im lettin my personal affairs affectin my work i admit. but some things cant be help. mood swings jxu crawl into me unknowingly. i tried my best to give my upmost shot in work. but i jux cant stop it.
life really suck big time. why must all the unhappiness occur at the same time. makin my life forever so miserable.
Let the pain overtake da sadness