China Doll
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
SO, truth is out huh.i din mean to do that de. but at least wat i have done makes me feel better.
you said, u are stressed up fucked up from all da court thingy and u dun wish to care abt anything. jux by sayin "sorry" u think it will solve everything. but so sad. no, it doesnt solve anything. it hurts me even more. the message that i get from all this is that u nv really cared abt how i feel. all along u knew u yourself were missin in action. yet u din even bother to tell me wat exactly happened. i hope u'll be a responsible man. watever u have done wrong, bear it. it isnt the first time u got into bike accident. compared to my cousin. your case is a small fry. my cousin sold drugs. left behind his kid and wife. but now his wife ran away. jux be a responsible young man.
u broke ur promise. u once said that we were suppose to share our joys and woes together. see, wat happened now. where are all my dears, darlings and baobei.? dun you noe how much i've been missin you all this while. i kept my faith in u. i constantly tell myself that u are fine u are alright u are busy with ur army thing. but things dun turn out the way i tot they were. how i missed gettin messages from u after i end my work. how much i miss hearin your voice. i want to hear u sing. how much i miss your naggin tellin me not to eat so much maggie as it is bad for health.
you broke so much of your promises. so many unfulfilled promises. u rather answer an unknown number instead of mine when i called last night. it took me so much courage to call you. dun you noe that? i was fuckin hurt. cried a river last night. my head hurts like crazy today.
i dun noe wat u are thinkin. watever u sent to angel i'll jux believe it. take me as a naive er who is deperate for everything. WHATEVER. for now, i can only take it as u flinged me. you got me so confused so vexed so frustrated,
but still, i miss you. i love u.