China Doll
Monday, March 28, 2005
today rosabel came over to relief. to my horror, i found out that i have changged. really changed this time. i became so mean. meanie me. was it because tt goh hui huang influenced me? or was it my own way of entertainin myself? i dunnoe.
den after work, i boarded that damn freezin bus. got down near TM walked to Mac got myself a packet of fries. so with that packet of freshly fried fries, i walked home. with the earphones of my discman tuck neatly in my ear. The disc playin Zhang Dong Liang's Shou Xuan. my all time fave disc. den i wondered, why isit that im always alone on da way home? why isit that there's no new messages for me (not includin those my mum and frens sent me). why isit that my phone doesnt rings as often? den i wondered, why i am who i am. gd quest. no one can answer me that question. wtf.
ahhhh.im bored im bored. i need life. i need a life~
played Duan Dian durin work. abit cannot take it. tears almost drop. as Lao Ren (who is he? ask me. and u will noe =D) said i can put all this down de. but i replied "somethings are jux freakin har to put down. esp. someone that had given u beautiful memories."
It's so tirin to be acting so rationally. u need to keep on thinkin and thinkin. it is jux so tirin. how i wish one day, i can jux free my emotions. but on the other hand, i have to think rationally abt the consequences. contradictin yea.?
wat the hell.