China Doll
Thursday, March 17, 2005
wake up in da morning
cant help but keep on yawnin
feel so lethargic
wat am i gonna do.
This is the lyrics of a song done by Perfect10. haha. like it alot. finally. tml an off. feel as if im gonna break down any moment. forgive me for the past few post. was sooo... irritatin? da yi ma came. mood swings. was worst den wat i have expected. i feel so sorry for myself. i pity myself. why am i goin thru all this shitz. i dun get it. works fine. relations with parents and siblings fine. but is it still that i v extremely incomplete, broken and..... unloved. thinkin rationally, i noe im being loved, by my frens by my family members. but, everything inside me so empty. why. bu zhi dao.
honestly, i still miss him lots. i dun get it. why is he still avoiding me? wat i have done wrong? i dunnoe. mebbe i did smth worng unknowingly. but cant he jux lemme noe? or isit that he did smth wrong? haiz. this time use finger predict also cannot. haiz. i've tried forgettin everything. but each time i here certain songs i'll be so reminded. wat the hell.
work was borin. sales was 2 thumbs down. talk alot. am bein abit irritated. who cares. dance to techno, r&b. practisin for my future =X. saw shum wai hong boon and daniel. guess they came to wait for wee keong. i almost shouted "OEI U OWE ME CIGGIE!!!" when i saw daniel. lmao. =X
argh. everything jux kinda suck now.