China Doll
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Huey wen in da day compared to Huey wen at night. Totally different. I don't exactly know why. but when night sets in. when everything seems so dark and yet there are always artificial light shining. somehow it scares me. it got me thinkin of all the unhappiness. den i get all so depressed. i didnt want too. i cant help myself. i suddenly get so intimidated by poly life. im feelin so stressed. haha. how funny. im only in year one. wats there to worry abt? tons.
I need to study. i need to work. i need to join a cca and get my ass in university. how am i gonna commit? study work cca projects tutorials assessments. gosh.
worst of all, the problem im facin at home. i was disgusted at how often wats happenin at home are also experienced by many other peoply of my age. i know im not the only one facin the stress and havin all the worries. i feel useless i feel lousy.
pay day is coming. thank god. but when i look at how much i have to let go just to pay bills pay books i almost wanted to faint. thats not the kind of life i wanted. i want to spend on wat i like and obviously i cant. Life is definitely like shit right now.
i seriously need someone to guide and bring me through wats happening. i know i have my gorgeous frenz who were there for me whenever i needed them. nice right? but i wanted something more. from a guy. a caring mature guy. who will give me all the advises i needed. some one whom i noe will bring me into his hug and let me cry. someone who can tolerate my 'dunnoe la!' at night. someone i can crap and laugh with in the morning.
enough of all those saddy stuff.
BIG NEWS!
hehehhe i took the same bus with haikal the cutie! i said hi to him and we sat next to each other and talked!!! *faIntz* he is sooooo mesmerizin. fin dout where he lived told me abit of his SIP. he knew my name blah. but forgot to xchange contact !%^&*&*() bus journey was damn short. haiz.wasted