China Doll
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Its so hard. Time and time again, i deny so consistently that i forget him already. Over and over again, i tried convincing that i no longer think of him. Each time i browsed friendster and i came upon his, i will definitely looked into his profile. see if anything changes. But so what if he changed his profile. It has nothing to do with me. And i cannot do anything too. If im not wrong his birthday coming soon. 25th May. Should i send him a msg to wish him happy birthday? Should i not. haha. How funny.It's like 2 weeks to his birthday. Yet im already pondering over this question. In a dilemma.
I feel so stupid. I know that i have to put everything down. But it's like "how?" .All the time i would stare at his pic. I noe this sounds idiotic. But it is the fact. So many times. I told my friends that i have no one in mind. hahaha. wat a liar. I just cannot put down the past.
Ni wei she me yao gei wo na xie hui yi. bu kan huo shou de hui yi. ni ming zhi dao ni dui wo you duo zhong yao. ni que ne me bu li qing de li kai. rang wo dui ni de si nian ri yu xu ye bu ting zai wo nao hai li fan gun. Ni yi ge li you ye mei gei wo. jiu zhe yang li wo er qu. pao xia yi qie bu guan. pao xia wi dui ni de ai yu guan xin. wo zhi dao wo bing mei you ba wo dui ni de ai quan bu biao da chu lai. yi zhi dou bu gan ai. zhi dao yu jian ni. wo ren wei wo hen you ba wo. dan wo cuo le. zhe yi ci wo die de hen zhong. wo shou shang le.