China Doll
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Having this really empty feeling. Everytime i anticipate something that may happened, it nv. was it my fault or yours? I've been thinkin about this question.
I've warned u about my hectic lifestyle way before we 2 got together. U can say u will wait. But for me, i feel injustice and unfairness for you. U may not feel antyhing but i just feel so upset. what is the point of having a r/s when we dun even have the time for each other? How are we going to sustain sucha relationship for long? Ever since 26/07/03, did we ever spent quality time together? no.
i din mean to pester u to come and fetch me from work. but that is the only time when both of us can get together. i understand you have your frenx and ur own lifestyle. i have my own too. thats why other den fetching me from work i din wanna make u come down meet me or whatsoever. Am i right or wrong to do this?
I know i sound egoistic/sarca/smart-aleck/mean la.. It is just a way of protecting myself. Once bitten twice shy. I dun wan the same thing happen to me again. it hurts.
i am still unable to trust. pls prove me wrong darl. make me trust u, can you?
i hope we can talk thru everything. ilu darl.