China Doll
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Zuo ren zhen fan nao. Tou tong. Zen me ben.
I woke up with seriously swollen eyes this morning. Was so terrible. I got a shock outta my life. As if i just got beaten up. Worst still, i left my make up pouch in my locker at work. SO! I left my house with that frightening face.
The moment i stepped into Parkway, I saw Wani(Baleno) and Wee Keong(S&K).
Wani: AIYO! AH BOON! (Thats how Im being called at my workplace. Sounds so ah pek nia. sigh) WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU! LIKE PREGNANT WOMAN JUST GAVE BIRTH!
Me: HUH! WHAT?! NV PUT MAKE UP ONLY WHATTT! *frantic*
WeeKeong: HORHOR! YOUR EYEBAG JIALAT!
Me: -walk towards Ebase with lan lan attitude-
Sobz. So now u peeps know that I look like a person who had just given birth when I dun put make up.
NO HOR! Is because last night i cried like shit. My eyes are swollen, my complexion sucks!
Saying a big thank you to ANGELINA TAN KAH YING! Always encouragin me, talkin to me, consoling me when im going thru all these shit. No matter how much thank you i said will express my gratitude. MwaH! i love ya girl. haha.. mai gan dong ah.
Had fun during my first break. Was in S&K storeroom. Watched Wani, Herman and Zhi An bicker. Was hilarious! I cant stop laughing. haha. Zhi An is so cute laaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hermannnn toooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Starting to love Parkway already. haaaz! nice colleagues all around.
I am currently in good mood. But i know tml all the same shit will happened again. I may have said smth hurtful but i guess it is necessary. Im tryin to protect myself, my privacy my everything. You maybe my parents, but since u all have trained me to be independent since young, i don't expect u peeps to interfere my life right now. I love both of ya. yes i do. cos u guys are my parents. The one who took care of me, gave me shelter food and almost everything i needed for the past 16 years.
Since it's 16 years, u should know how my character is like. I don't like to defend myself. Cos i think it is a waste of time. but this world is so unfair that i have no choice. I din want to shout back i din want to talk back. I hope one day, u peeps will truly understand how i feel.
Im not being selfish. I noe how it is tough for both of you. Thats why i dun wish to add on to burdens by tellin my problems and troubles. I would rather turn to my friends. And i know they are good friends who will advise and guide me in the right path. They loved me. I loved them. Most imptly i love both of ya too.
Im never good at expressing my inner thoughts to both of ya. I cant. Cos i'll get all so emo.
Maybe one day, i'll see the light of my life.
Im missing my ex quite alot this few days. HAIYA! dunnoe la. fan nao.