China Doll
Friday, October 07, 2005
I did not really want to go to the family court.
The fear to face everything.
In a state of confusion.
When i saw my dad came alone. My heart sank. How i wish he did not come. But this will mean that he is a coward. On the other hand, im glad he came, so that everything wil be solved quickly.
Inside the family court, the silence was deafening. I cant help but keep tearing. Somehow i managed to control them from descending; by popping lotsa sweets into my mouth.
I was surprised to see so many people divorcing in one day. No wonder Singapore government's worried.
Everything ended. I don't dare to look at him. He is alone. Why aint my uncles there? At least it would make me feel better to see someone is there for him. Whether or not he is in the right or wrong. Cos he's a human afterall. Seems that my dad doesnt have any support. Physically or mentally. Maybe it is just a feeling of pity for my dad. I don't know.
The ultimate feeling in me is sadness.