China Doll
Friday, October 14, 2005
In my whole 17 years of life, year 2005 is the year that is filled with regrets.
It dawned me that for many things I had done, I could have done it better.
Since there are so much regrets, we learn from what we have done.
Thats why, I spent many sleepless night thinking.
This whole year wasn't fucking fantastic.
For all the mistakes I have done, I tried to change.
But did anyone ever see me changing? Did anyone believe I was changing? Did anyone trust me to change?
It takes time to change. But did anyone give me ample time to prove that I am changing? Was I ever given the chance to show that I am changing?
If yes, why am I still hearing those reproaching words? Was enough time ever given to me before anything else was said?
I know I was once wrong. I'm trying hard.
I feel injustice. But what can I do?
Do I ever have the chance to voice out my unhappiness? Did anyone ever listen to what I have to say?
At times, I really feel like detaching myself from everyone. I feel like drowning myself in my own fantasy. How long can this last? Face it HueyWen. Life is simply unfair.