China Doll
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
I am so goddamn #%^&*^. I wan silence after breakup. I wan peace after breakup. Is that so difficult to give? For what you come and tell me about what you have done? What are you trying to say? I told you it's over and in the mean times I have no intention of going into r/s. Just for fuck sake let me do what I wan, THE WAY I WANT TO DO MY THINGS.
I know you are going to read this. I know you are gonna keep your promises. Thats good. Don't do it for me. Do it for yourself. I don't want to be a stake for you. I have done all the serious thinking. I am happy being where I am now. No commitment no nothing. It's frenship kinship more frenship and more kinship. Thats enough for me. As for you, go figure what you want, what you have. You control your own life. You determine your own life. I know I sounded harsh. I didn't want to. But I have no choice. I want to put a stop to everything. And I appreciate every little thing you did. I really do but just gimme a break.
I know you will say you want to clarify things if you ever read this. I don't want to listen and I don't wanna know. Maybe it's a form of escapism. BUT JUST LEAVE ME ALONE LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
BLAH! JUST WHEN I TOT I AM GOING TO BE THE HAPPY LITTLE GIRL WHEN I ONCE WAS, EVERYTHING IS MESSED UP!!! well, i have to be hard-hearted thou i feel bad. hmm
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Anyway. darling girl called me 5.15 am sharp this morning. FWAH! Shock the hell outta me. Fate sometimes is cruel. They play all sorts of games with us. Don't worry girl. Know what? God gave us pretty faces, in return, they mess with our love life. hah. It was such coincidence. Was it? Was it not? Whatever it is girl, go on with life. You have me, your friends, everyone will be around you. ^^
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Yesterday, chilling with tua neh aka xiaoling was good! Slacked at starbuck bitch about this and that. Saw Minfei and couldn't recognise Yujie. haha. Yes yes. I can see the shock on Minfei's face when I saw I donnot who's that person and took me awhile to realise it's YUJIE! HE IS SO TALL! No, he LOOKS TALL for his age.
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Screwed my second take for Broadcast Performance. Sigh. I miss my girlie. Blah...